Clown World

UPDATE!

2010-01-27T12:46:00.003+08:00

hey to those whom i've missed!

Its been what? a bazillion years since i've posted sth decent up on my blog...and well, you guessed it, this wont be anymore decent then the last :P hahah

Anyways! i'm currently in school now and i am drowning in assignments and tutorials and projects! like literally! i have numerous tutorials that needs COPYING...hahah, numerous assignments that needs COMPLETING and numerous projects that needs....well, actually who cares bout projects but they still do need to be submitted!

I am sooo sooo dead, and to top all that, my exams are in approximately 2 weeks and i've yet to revise for any of my modules.

Final year tests, for modules which are non-examinable, are just next week......OH HO HO, i am fucking road kill just about now.

Hmmmm other then school, my outside (non-school/non-family) life have just been great. :) nth much that i can indulge you guys in but just rest assured i'm pretty happy where everything and everyone is concerned.

Thats my update for now! i have to rush to class soon for a test which i've yet to study for!! see ya!! :D

Happy new years 2010!!!

2010-01-02T14:07:00.003+08:00

Hey People!!

I know i am a day late but who cares?! It's 2010 everyone, so happy new years!!!

Let's start with the past year first,

what can i say bout 2009.....hmmm it sucked, really it did to the point where i can seriously believe and say that 2009 was the worst year so far. 2008 was okay compared to 2009 (and i took my o levels in 2008!!!)

apart from the constant nagging and comparing done by my parents (cant do anything bout that anymore luh ah....) i actually got into a lot of trouble this year, mostly with school heh :) trouble after trouble after trouble. Can't really tell you guys what troubles i got myself into, imma try and forget it!!!!

Anyways, aside from that, the clique ended up splitting up into different schools, straying further and further away.... rarely meeting them. (but i have to say some of us do keep an effort to keep in contact! hahah) hmmm what else can i say, schools pretty boring, classmates are okay but NOTHING compared to my secondary school friends :(

Oh well, all in all 2009 was pretty sucky, but one good thing did happen though, i met my boyfriend! whom i've been with for 6 months now! thats pretty long eh...well to think about it, 2009 was okay just for the sole fact that he was there for me everytime i needed someone to confide in, to beat up, to let out my stress and anger....HAHAH sorry man! haha

Okay lets stop complaining it is soooo unbecoming of me!

To start off, we welcomed 2010 with a bang! celebrated Rams birthday, drank the night away and had loads and loads of fun! Actually booked a hotel room and partied till everyone just collapsed. It was definitely a memorable night, spent with the one i love and with friends i care for.

I'm going to make a point to put in effort in making 2010 a great year for me. No more nonsense and keeping my goal in mind. What's my new years resolution you ask? well i have yet to come up with one but once i do, you'll be the first to know!

Happy new years guys, and have a great year ahead!! weeeeeeeeeee!

ps : I R HAPPEH! :D

boredom strikes!

2009-11-26T10:11:00.004+08:00

I'm in school now....gosh soooo fucking boring waithing here for my group mates to arrive....well i do have to say i am early.....well very early in fact....had to do make up lesson for HIP HOP! hehehe

and of all days, i picked today to make up, we did crunches, push ups and tensing reps after reps of it....booo :( and we learned popping hahhaha....well alls not that bad coz steph was there to my surprise hahah

Any who....i am seriously soooo sleepy....and im hungry :(

I want the macs chicken teppanyaki burger with coke and SEAWEED SHAKER FRIES!!! OMG YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they brought it back!!! heeeeee i are sooo happeh....sorry if im not making sense coz im just randomly typing whatever that comes to mind right now...YES IM THAT BORED!!!!!!!!

now i crave macs....and a tinsy winsy bit of durian...i know WEIRD right...of all things i crave durian...and know if i do get it i would only eat like 1 small one just to satisfy my craving....come to think of it i have not eaten durian for 1 year plus i think.... :(

Oh today i have presentation which i DID NOT prepare for...heee! im just gonna ramble shit off the top of my head. Can one lah...im that good a bullshitter...HEEEEE!!!

BTW MY HAIR IS SHORT NOW!!!! PIC OF IT BELOOOOOWWW!!!

beauty?

2009-11-22T00:18:00.004+08:00

You know what?

Ever since i could remember, i was taught or more like brought up thinking that the outer layer of a person is all that matters (besides money that is...but thats not the point here). How good looking a person is or your partner is determines how happy you'll be. And ever since i could remember, that has been a set standard for me, never date a guy any less then what i expect. So to say it bluntly, i've never dated a guy just for their personality, solely for their looks. Yeah, i know that sounds horrible, it sounds down right shallow and typical. And yeah i agree with all that as well.

Society has brainwashed us into making us think in one way and only one way.

Hot, get him. Not, dump him.

Since we were young, we grow up with posters, billboards, tv commercials, media all around us showing beautiful, handsome girls and guys, an impossible, unachievable beauty. And with that, our mindset of what is beautiful and what is not, what is happiness and love is has been set by these exact medias all around us.

We see the fashion world, with all the pretty clothes, awesome accessories and amidst all this, we see the stick skinny models strutting up and down the runway. And with this, the perception of beauty in peoples eyes differs as well. Being stick skinny, something which is unnaturally skinny is now beautiful. And people trying to be "beautiful" will go to the extent of starving themselves and vomiting after every meal to achieve that stick skinny body. Is this really what beauty is? to go against nature, to hurt and torment urself to achieve what the media say is beautiful.

That is just an example of what the media and society has done to us. Brain draining us to think what they want us to think. to believe what they want us to believe. Not have our own perception or opinion. And its hard to break out of this cycle because we've grown up believing it.

I, myself testify to this. Even though i realize what is going on, even though i protest against this. Hate it, i just find my mind wandering back to what i first said. Is beauty really the route to happiness? Would i be alot happier if my partner was hot, handsome? And every time i catch myself wondering this, i hate myself as well. I'm happy with where i am, what i have. Why must i wonder of what it would be like if i had more. Beauty fades, over time you grow old and that once pretty/handsome face would be scarred with wrinkles indication and a reminder of time and how much of it has passed. Yeah we have botox, plastic surgery but how long and how much would that help?? Would we want to be hiding under a layer of plastic for the rest of our lives?

Well, the answers to those questions is something each of us would have to face one way or another.

fever be gone!!!

2009-11-04T20:40:00.003+08:00

hey people, ugh i've not been going to school for the past what? 3 days....omg...

i have a really bad headache and fever. And the sad thing is i still dun feel well after 3 days!!! my heads still pounding and my temperature still high, well actually higher then before. fuck you fever!

tomorrows also my hip hop class and i'd have to miss this and make up for it some other time...prolly what? next thursday morning, since thats the only free slot i have. boooo

i hate getting sick....im sooo sooo behind class.....and at this rate i'll prolly fail this sem! OOOHHH NOOO!!

HATE HATE HATE!!!!! UGH!

Run

2009-10-26T20:11:00.003+08:00

omg...i am soo freaking bored to death right now...and i guess nows just one of those periods in ure life where you feel everything is like shit...ugh...

Im soo lazy to go to school, im soo lazy to care bout it, im soo lazy to do anything actually....

i dun wanna do it anymore and pretend that i care! im sooo sick of all the pretenses and all the shit. I wanna go out, i dun wanna stay at home. I wanna live my life the way i want to and not how someone think i SHOULD live my life like. I wanna get far faraway from here. I wanna run and never look back. I wanna have the freedom to be me and never have to be afraid of someone taking that away from me. I wanna grow up as fast as possible, i wanna get my own place, i wanna run.

When will all this stop? never.

How long much longer can i take it? not much longer.

Will i go crazy if i pretend that this is not happening? yes.

Do i wanna leave everything behind and just runtill my legs can not carry me any futher? definitely.

What do you want? to be free.

I dunnoe how much longer i can take all this crap and not have a serious mental meltdown. I'm sooo fucking sick of it all.....I wanna run!

"We're running to the edge of the world.
Running, running away.
We're running to the edge of the world.
I don't know if the world will end today."

ABORTION!!!!

2009-10-14T22:01:00.002+08:00

Month One.

Hi Mommy!
I am only 3/4 of an inch long,
But I have all my organs.
I love the sound of your voice.
Every time I hear it,
I wave my arms and legs.
The sound of your heart beat
Is my favorite lullaby.

Month Two.

Mommy,
Today I learned how to suck my thumb.
If you could see me
You could definitely tell that I am a baby.
I’m not big enough to survive outside my home though.
It is so nice and warm in here.

Month Three.

You know what Mommy,
I’m a boy!
I hope that makes you happy.
I always want you to be happy.
I don’t like it when you cry.
You sound so sad.
It makes me sad too,
And I cry with you even though
You can’t hear me.

Month Four.

Mommy,
My hair is starting to grow.
It is very short and fine
But I will have a lot of it.
I spend a lot of my time exercising.
I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes
And stretch my arms and legs.
I am becoming quite good at it too.

Month Five.

You went to the doctor today.
Mommy, he lied to you.
He said that I’m not a baby.
I am a baby, Mommy, your baby.
I think and feel.
Mommy, what’s abortion?

Month Six.

I can hear that doctor again.
I don’t like him.
He seems cold and heartless.
Something is intruding my home.
The doctor called it a needle.
Mommy what is it? It burns!
Please make him stop!
I can’t get away from it!
Mommy! Help me!

Month Seven.

Mommy,
I am okay.
I am in Jesus’s arms.
He is holding me.
He told me about abortion.
Why didn’t you want me, Mommy?

Every abortion is just…

One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.

If you’re against abortion, repost.
And people who say abortion isn’t killing a life, whatever.

okay, i totally agree with almost everything except the part bout being in jesus's arms....sorry doods.....

rant post

2009-10-13T10:18:00.002+08:00

hey,

Oh, i was sooooo angry and pissed off the other day....kinda walked my anger off from dhoby to bugis...well you might say its not THAAAT far, but i beg to differ, everything seems far when ure in freaking heels...it was a good walk off tho...

and when i reached bugis, i got into a cab and just sat in the lil smelly and uncomfortable cab, steaming in anger, as in literally, i felt so hot, well not really,more of a like warm feeling all over (bad kinda warm feeling!) and its bad enough that i was already angry, the taxi driver took me for a ride! (not that sex kinda ride....ewww gross) he took me all the way to kallang, then paya lebar the durian street there and then went one whole freaking round just to get to my place...oh the frustration i felt....FUCKER!

So when we finally reached the stooooopid place, i threw at him the fair and slammed the cab door, well not before i put in a few words of what i thought of him...well an asshole pretty much...

and yeah that was it! (pretty much...at least)

however, i dun wanna end this post with me bein angry and pissed...well, with regards to the previous post, dinner was awesome!! had chilli crab and cakes for dessert! weeee! after, we headed to clark quay for a girls night out! weeee!

I'M EATING MR. KRAB!!!!! weeeeee

dinner resv

2009-10-08T22:50:00.000+08:00

hooray!!!

dinner with the beautiful people tmr! hahaa i cant wait!!

soooo SEXCITING!!!!!

movies

2009-10-08T01:50:00.002+08:00

Hey ho!

weee!! watched 2 movies on the same day! hahah, cloudy with a chance of meatballs and surrogates!

i must say the first one was entertaining and out of the world ideas, but oh ho ho surrogates took it to a whole new level...the story is soo cool and i dunnoe it seems like sth that could prolly happen in the far future, which makes it scary much! weehehe, the twists in the stories kept it spicy....and overall i enjoyed the movie alot...well both movies alot...hahaha one was childish and the other more serious and action based....

hahaha one move im looking forward to is 2012...omg what an epic movie....i cant wait!!! weee!

see ya!

PMS RAGE!!!

2009-10-06T23:13:00.004+08:00

Im trying my best to control my PMS-SY-NESS!!!

I HATE!!! HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE!!!!!!! BOOOO!!!

GARRRRGH!!! WAHAHAHAHAH BLARGH!!! BLLAAAARRGH!!! I HATE YOU!!! I HATE HATE HATE!!! I HATE YOU!!!!

UGH!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

makeover + urban sports

2009-10-06T12:59:00.002+08:00

Hey people!!!

i've just updated my blog and gave it a whole new makeover! weee sooo exciting...hahahah i think my blogskin is soo cute...hahah kinda reminds me of ME! hahahah im crazy that way you see...

Well anyways! school is going to reopen soon and im dreading it! but im looking forward to it at the same time! seeing all my classmates and bullying wilson will be sooo fun! weeehehehe Weather veli good! hahahha! inside joke people...

HO!

Nad and ram showed me this urban sports video which are hilarious!!

Its called Neg's urban sports. And here, he'll come up with stupid games in which you can earn points....sadly tho, cant post it up on here so i'll just give you the link to discover it urselves!

http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=negs+urban+sports&search_type=&aq=0&oq=negs+

hahhaa enjoy!

The girl who silenced the world for 5 mins.

2009-10-05T17:49:00.000+08:00

i love how she delivered the speech....WEE!!

CHANGE THE WORLD!!!!

HARI RAYA 2009!

2009-09-20T17:51:00.003+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!!!

The day finally came and for some weird reason or rather, it didnt feel all that special to me. (oh besides the getting money part, it wasnt all that special) I woke up sleepy and groggy and irritated. Felt tooo lazy to be up and about going from house to house and pretend to care bout what the next person is talking about.

First house was my grandmas on my dads side. Okay i admit other than the money, my grandma makes the bessst ayam rendang in the whole wide world!!hehehe and i am proud to say i stole some chicken from the kitchen only to be smacked on the butt by my grandma..heh heh heh...Still got away with the chicken in one piece tho...

Second house, my grandmas on my mums side. Aaaahh, this i dun mind at all, went there and gossip about talking bout whos the newest trouble maker or whos the newest junkie. hhaha, haaah, fun time! Getting interrogated by my distant aunt asking if i already have a boyfriend and getting irritated by this old mak cik who kept saying i was pretty and wanting to match make me with some dood...

Third house, my great grandmas on my mums side again. The infamous chain smoker of Marl REDs...hahha yeap there i said it, my great grandmas smoking like a chimney and is still kicking! dun really like it there tho, alot of people that i guess i dun really know and dun really socialize with. As all families have it, theres a good side and a bad side...well sad to say, this was the bad side. hahaha got out of there alive tho, Zafirah save me from boredom by gossiping and bitching. hahaha.

And now im back home! well, it was okay as a whole. but i am too old and too lazy to this again and again year after year....BORING!

funny!

2009-09-11T19:48:00.001+08:00

Hey ya people!

a friend of mine showed me this video on youtube i just find it simply adorable and funneh! so i thought i shall share it with you guys too! enjoy!!! hahaha

boring

2009-09-10T07:59:00.003+08:00

HEy ho!

gosh todays a fucking boring day. makes me wonder why the hell didnt i get a gun and blow my brains out. Everyday seem to be the same o same o. makes me wonder what else there is...

oh well, slept like a freaking pig (what ram would say) last night, tired as fuck!

I prolly should go do sth productive eh? but im toooo lazy!!!

why cant my life be as exciting as it is in the movies or television shows or even lame ass story books....at least sth gets turned in to a pumpkin...oh wait i forgot, coz its all not real! reality sucks thats why men invent mediums such as movies and stories to escape and dull the pain. if reality wasnt such a bitch then we wouldnt need entertainment or happy endings now do we?

reality is the annoying, painful hang nail that you just want to pluck out and get rid off once and for all but for the love of christ (hah yeah riight....looove..hahah!) just simply cant no matter how much you want to.

oh well, back to sleeping then...

revelation

2009-09-01T15:05:00.003+08:00

Losing. A word we all are familiar with. Something that all of us have indeed gone through more than once. Could have lost in a game or could have lost someone dear and special to you.

Losing someone, dear and close to your heart is never easy. Especially when you can only stand by and watch the person moving further and further away out of your own reach. Sad enough to say, I for one have experienced this more than once. Oh so sad actually.

But theres a point of time in everyones life that they wake up, open their eyes and realize that nothing last forever. Not even the sweetest, purest of things. We stop dreaming and thinking that life is as easy as we see it. Yes, it maybe hard, it may hurt but that doesnt mean you stop living. It doent mean you stop loving. And it also doesnt mean you'll forget.

A once lovely and blossoming friendship fades to black and white.

Part and parcel of life. Not that im not used to it, but losing is always something so sad. Not that i'll hurt forever, but i'll hurt knowing all the memories we created together, remembering. Not that i dun love you enough to just let you go, but i love you soo much that i'm letting you go.

"If you love something you set it free and hope it comes back to you. If it doesnt you wish the very best for that person and that he/she is happy wherever he/she may be"

And i've accepted this. I'm glad. I'm happy. I'm sad. I'm hurt. but most of all....I'm always here.

Even the the sweetest and purest of things must come to an end.

ugh

2009-08-22T23:58:00.002+08:00

LAST DAY OF EXAMS!!!

sadly it had to end badly....i think im going to flunk my thermofluid paper :( and that means RETEST!! NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!

i refuse to study anymore for that stoopid paper....thanks to red bull overload i totally blanked out during the paper....fuck my life...and almost all the questions that came out i did before!! double fuck my life....haiiiz....

Well, im just gonna wait for the stoopid email saying i failed and that i have to take the retest...UGH!!! but whatev, i shall enjoy for now....but like i can enjoy alot like that especially since its fasting month!

and today is the first day of fasting month! i actually forgot that i was fasting and was very close to breaking my fast.....STOOPID WEN HAO!!!

okay anyways, i shall be going off now...tomorrows ashes bdae picnic! i hope i can make it! weeeeeee!

im back!!!

2009-08-20T23:18:00.004+08:00

Hey people! its been sooo fucking long since i've blogged and posted a proper post instead of the previous one...hahah i should prolly explain my previous post huh.... hahha

okay okay...

so the story is i had a fever the past week courtesy of RAM (stoopid ass) who passed me his germy germy germs! And i went to my usual clinic and it seriously took forever for my turn. With a fever of 39.5, i was there in my hoodie and covering up my face with it so i could get some shut eyes. Halfway i woke up to the voice of a very angry FAT CHINESE MAN who kept asking for at least 10mins how much longer it'll take. FUCKING ASSHOLE. people are there sick and having a fever and he's there complaining why it's taking sooooo long. The receptionist finally decided to let him jump queue. WOAH i was fucking pissed at that...i waited an hour for this fucking FAT FAT FAT chinese man to jump queue. if it was a normal day, i would prolly have a lil bit of patience in me to ignore the commotion and go back to sleep. but i was getting pissed with each passing minute and plus i had a fucking high fever. I mumble "FAT YELLOW BASTARD" when he walked passed. UH-OH!

hahahha so anyways, he stopped and turned around and asked me what did i just say? and i took the hood off and looked him dead in the eye and said "I SAID THAT YOU ARE A FAT YELLOW BASTARD. while im at it, i'm gonna go on and call you impatient as well, why are you even at the doctors? all the FAT AND LARD getting to you?" Yeap no shit. i was that crazy to say that...blame the fever...hahaha ooopsie....the chinese dood shut up and looked at me with his ever so threatening eyes and just turned and followed the receptionist. After that, i felt a lil better...but then slowly got pissed again coz i waited for a total of 2 fucking hours for my turn to get to see the doctor plus get my meds and get the fuck outta there.

on a lighter note!

tomorrows my math paper! and the day after is my thermofluid paper! to tell you the truth im not quite that ready for the latter one but oh well, i guess i'll cram everything on friday itself. and after that im freeeeee!!! saturday marks the end of my semester now im just hoping that my attendance don't fuck things up for me! hahah, oh well, anyways i cant wait for holidays (after the fasting period tho, then it'll be more fun!)

To all you dood who are having their holidays already....FUCK YOU! hahaha

aaah, nice to be back eh? hahhaa

see ya!

stoopid fat chinese man

2009-08-12T17:45:00.002+08:00

STOOPID FAT CHINESE MAN!!!!!!!

randomness!r

2009-07-30T21:49:00.002+08:00

Hey people! im back again, after oh so very long!

I'm bored!! tomorrows friday finally!!! and then the weekend!

and ugh, even if its the weekend i still have to wake up early in the morning on saturday to help my dear friend nad with her small production for her final project. Dun worry! i'll do my best! haha anyways, after shooting at heavens know where, we'll have lunch i guess then head on over to jennas place. Ashes and the rest prolly will have to continue shooting whereas i'll be done! weee that means i can slack off at jennas!!

damn tho, i need to study :( 3 major tests next week....why must they always be major tests???cant it be a minor test...booo this sucks....

oh and gosh i suddenly have the intense feeling of picking up guitar from where i left off in sec 3...dunnoe why tho...i want an acoustic guitar now!!!!!!! :( :( :(!!!!!

epiphone DR-100 please :D hehehehhe, dunnoe if i'll get it tho boooohooooo.... :(

RE: PYROr

2009-07-22T22:42:00.002+08:00

Hey pyro! ummm hahah i decided to do a post coz im too lazy to tag all my modules on the stoopid tagboard...hahah

Umm, well basically i'm taking all the fundamental modules right now. and okay i'll list it down for you dood.

1) Thermofluid 1

This is actually just fucked up advance maths plus physics! :D hahha

2) Engineering materials

learning all the retarded properties of metals and shit like that, more memory based.

3) Aircraft manufacturing and main sth sth (hahaha i dunnoe the name!)

umm its more of all the practical and the functions of the main aircraft parts.

4) Engineering maths

basically A maths in sec sch

5) AutoCAD

engineering drawings

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YEah thats mostly it luh excluding all the extra modules and stuff....well next semester we'll be doing entirely different modules. I think i'll be having programming and stuff like that next sem.

Well, hope this helped! hahha any questions just ask kay!

btw just curious, which class are you from in RP aerospace avionics??

Bathe lah!! SHOWER LAH!!!

2009-07-17T12:18:00.002+08:00

Afternoon people!

I've just finished practical but thats not what im here to talk about today. :)

the topic today goes more or less like "WHY THE FUCK DUN YOU PEOPLE BATHE IN THE FUCKING MORNING!?!?!"

Helloooooo, if you havent noticed, we are living in a tropical climate and esp singapore being near the equator is freaking hot! and obviously you'll sweat like pig come noon....and still you dun wanna bathe in the morning?! eeeewww gross much!

i'm not doing any personal attacks on anyone, but its just freaking gross lah! early in the freking morning and you already smell!?!? gosh thank god i didnt vomit in the bus....the smell was sooo horrible and sour....eeeeeWW EWWW EEEWWW EWWWW EEEEWWW!!

Is it soo hard to shower in the morning?? i mean come on, you sleep at night, and skin is shed during sleeping, and you drool, and you i dunnoe what, ejaculate in ur dream i dunnoe! but its gross and you dun wanna shower at least?! fucking gross bastards you are. And the majority race are commonly guilty of this....sorry dood this is the harsh truth, and face it it is true...you guys STINK!

and the dood sitting infront of me in the bus this morning was with his girlfriend too...omg! would have thought that the girlfriend wouldnt want to lean on him and shit but nooooo she was all over him! MAJOR GROSS MUCH!i bet she didnt bathe as well....come on lah....take a freaking shower!!!!!! D:<

pffft...fucking gross ass people....

anyways on a lighter note....dun i look like an old granny with this protection "goggles"!?!?!

WAHHAHAHA

BORED!!!

2009-07-02T16:36:00.004+08:00

My head hurts...urgh....project works!! arrrgh!!!

my eyes are in pain :( but thank god now all i need to do are the transitions now....but its irritating!!!

But we managed to cam whore!

Anywhoo playing UNO at ourspace now for then hell of it coz weare that bored....im waiting for my CCA to start!! boooo...gosh tmr practical! only think i look forward too...

im bored....really really really bored!!!

DUCKS ARE DUMB CREATUREs!!!

common test grades!

2009-07-01T00:27:00.002+08:00

Awesome meera here!! hahaha

Okay so common tests results are out! and well for some of us it might be an "EEERRRGGHHHH" moment but for others it might be a "yippeeeee!!" moment and i bet for most it'll be "Whatev" moment! hahaha

Well, its been such a long long time since i actually put in effort studying for my modules. In secondary school, i was a major major slacker but i guess, new school, new friends, new year....i decided it was time to switch it up, instead of being happy with just passes, i want to earn my As.

And i guess after this common test, it just proves that nothing is impossible!

Yeah, you pretty much guessed it huh, my results are awesome! hahaha yeap yeap yeap!

Straight As with majority of them being A+ for mostly all but one of my modules, so yeah hows that for great eh?? Sill couldnt believe that i could actually achieve that kinda grades but oh well, guess im just magical! hahaha (wth.....)

My GPA, well thats not calculated yet tho, but things are looking up for me, for now 44% of the overall 100% have been tabulated and i fall between the range of 39%-44% for different modules. Really excited. However that means id have to sustain my As. what a bugger. Oh well...we'll see i guess.

Oh and my lecturers nominated me to be a poster girl for my course which is Aerospace Technology....greeeaaaat....gosh poster girl, seriously?! hahahha we'll see again i guess...hahah

see ya!!

boooooor

2009-06-27T22:43:00.002+08:00

Hey people!

its been awhile hasnt it?? and yeah holidays are coming to an end and its time to start off the new term in the right way. but seeing that most of my projects are either not completed or we havent even started on it, i guess starting the new term would be hectic with all of us trying to finish off our projects.

Anywhooo, my mum woke me up this morning with a msg saying "ur school extending one week of hols" and seeing that, i did my happy dance on my bed, feeling soo relieved and happy that i get to enjoy one more week of nothing-ness...haha but then it all came crashing down coz in actual fact it wasnt my shcool that was getting their hols extended, but it was nanyang poly! haaaiz, and worse! i did my happy dance for nothing!!! what a waste of time, effort and energy...booooooooooo

hahah so anyways! on a lighter note, MJ DIED!!! (oh no wait, its a tragedy huh) oh well! :P

ummmm

2009-06-18T12:47:00.003+08:00

GOSH IM BORED!!!!!!

IM FUCKING BORED!!!!!

YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW BORED I AM!!!!!

FUCK YOU!!!!!!

BORING FUCKING LIFE!!!!!!

UGH!!!!!!!

ARRRRRRGGGGGHH!!!!!!

IM BORED!!!

REALLY BORED!!!!

EH ALAMAK!!!! BORING LAH!!!!!

HAIZ!!!!!

OOOH! BROKEN GLASS!!

MAYBE THAT'LL BE FUN!!!

NOPE, ON SECOND THOUGHT...NOPE!!

NOW IM BORED AGAIN!!!!!

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!

ps: IM FUCKING BORED!!!

For you

2009-06-14T15:49:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i wish i could take your pain and sadness away. Wish i could believe when i say that it's all going to be alright, it's going to get better. The thing is, i do not know how things will turn up but what i do know is that i'm going to be there for you. :) You can talk to or lean on me anytime you need to cause i'll try my best to help you out or comfort you if comfort is what you need.

"They're scared of his make-up, tattoos, and piercings
They say that it's too bad
He won't amount to anything

They judge by the way he looks
The cover's not quite like the book
He's just so misunderstood

Cuz it's so obvious
here's nothing wrong with us at all
it's our life, we're alright
No, we're not about to go and make
The same mistakes you mighta made"

I'm always here for you kay...

WOAH! shit manr

2009-06-12T18:13:00.001+08:00

WOAH!!! WATCH THIS!!! This dood is awesome!!

WOOOHOOO!! End Of CT!

2009-06-12T17:23:00.003+08:00

AAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!

Today was my last day of common test!! weeee! and two weeks of holiday!!! but for me i guess, not much relaxing due to the tons of projects that are waiting to be completed by the end of my hols...but anyways im still glad i at least have some time to relax and de-stress...

First thing on the agenda is SISHA!!!!! hell yeah, ive been desperately needing sisha for a long while. Thanks to all the studying and cramming i've done, my poor ol' brain and i deserve to relax and cause harm to our health! woohoooo! Sisha!! coz i am Meera's uncomplaining lungs man!

Wonder what i'll be doing during the holidays...hmmmm anyhooo, i shall go and sleep now coz im freaking tired....blame them ministry and the need for everyone to GET AN EDUCATION!!! pfft...

Oh and the picture below is of me in protective gear!!!!!! it was fucking hot btw...but i look hilarious therefore i took a picture of myself in it! hahah

HAHAHAH SEE YA! PEACE!

NAD IS THE NEXT SINGAPORE IDOL!!

2009-06-07T00:13:00.003+08:00

OMG!!!! NAD MADE IT THROUGH TO SINGAPORE IDOL!!!! WOOOHOOOOOOOO!!!! YAY!! CONGRATS LOVE!!!

I knew you could do it! you have an awesome voice and an even awesome personality, they would be stoopid not to put you in! yay, we are all soooo excited for you! hehehe, go kick some ass! i went there and saw loads of minahs and mats/lians and bengs...pfft come on nad! you can soooooo beat their asses man!

HAHAHA

LOVE YA!! AND ALL THE BEST THROUGH OUT THE COMPETITION YEAH! EH, and please dun neglect ur studies kay...they are as important too tho they are usually a pain in the arse!

Yeah once again congrats and i love you!!!! WOOOHOOO!! haha

Stressed out?????????

2009-05-30T10:18:00.003+08:00

With The common test approaching (a week away actually) i'm pretty stressed out. Eventhough i have 3 examinable modules, they are FUCKED UP MODULES!!

hahah well, Engineering maths is pretty okay mostly revision of what i did in secondary school, Easy Peasy Lemon Squeezy!

However, Thermofluid and Engineering materials are crazy as hell modules! Thermofluid is managable but with my memory, i'll prolly forget all the formula and equations in panick man...Engineering material, hahah! the lecturer sucks! and i have to just learn the whole module by myself coz thats how badly the lecturer sucks, dunnoe what the hell he's talking about!

Okay, so other than these modules for common test, i have 2 tests this coming week! FUCK MAN! Thermofluid which i have to get 75% according to my ever so pretty lecturer. If i do not manage to achieve 75%, i'll just have to re-take and re-take the test till i get 75% and above. Freak. And my other test is AMMP, Aircraft Manufacturing and sth sth (hahah i seriously do not know what the sth sth is) And the test carries a heavy weightage of 20%. Haiyoh....Im freaking stressed out lah. ON TOP OF THIS WONDERFUL PILE OF FUCKING TESTS AND COMMON TESTS, I HAVE 3 PROJECTS DUE BY THE END OF MY JUNE BREAK. FREAKING BRILLIANT man...freaking brilliant...

Oh and my mum expects all As for all my module...FUCK THE WHAT!!!!!!!!!!! I'm not freaking supergirl man...fuck this.

On a lighter note! I went shopping yesterday! Thought i deserved a break and a reward for not going mental by now....Got 2 really really really awesome cute dresses! TEEEEHEEEEE! and a few hair accessories...OH! and i went for a manicure! yay me! i feel a lil happy now...hahah

Okay off to study now!!

Day in KL

2009-05-23T23:05:00.006+08:00

Hey people!

I'm now in KL just for the weekend..hahah

My dad had a business trip and we decided to tag along i guess, My dad, my mum, my brother and me!

Drive to KL was boring as hell with everyone minding their own business, i slept for most of the journey. Along the way though, something exciting happened, there was a really bad down pour and alot of trees fell, it was seriously wicked, and the car literally rocked kay coz of the freaking strong wind!

for a moment there, Final Destination scene of the truck with log on it kinda crashed and stuff played through my mind and i though it would be really cool if it had happened (yeah yeah im weird....whatev)

Just when we reached the hotel, my brother and i got really bored and decided to camwhore using the photo booth application on my mac (and yeas i brought along my mac) soo here are the random pictures!! hahhah

Now im off to go shopping!!!!! wooohooo!

2007?! WOAH

2009-05-15T14:38:00.001+08:00

EH WOW!!! I JUST REALISED THAT I'VE HAD THIS BLOG SINCE 2007!!! WAHAHHAHA 3 YEARS ANNIVERSARY COMING UP!!! WOOOHOOO

friday bliss with LG

2009-05-15T13:35:00.003+08:00

Hey ho!

Im currently in school (ugh) at OurSpace slacking around!

*mumbles* Stoopid school and its stoopid 4 hr long breaks...fuck lah...pfft

And yeah...4 hours break on fridays, hate how they cant just push up the class and shit, yah lah, yah lah i understand the lecturers schedule may clash and shit like that but oh well, what to do...

So anyhow! today is Sisha session part 2!!! yay i cant wait, the previous time i didnt really get high, pfft....but today is a must!

Oh and todays practical was pretty awesomely cool-yo! haha, umm, how to describe it, its metal grinding...and yeah the name suggest it all...we grind metal...(heh heh heh...ssshhh its not what it sounds like) it was soo cool!! there were like sparks and shit..hahah (okay okay..i know i sound nerdy..pfft....i know lah you guys not interested, but guess what? guess what?! THIS IS MY FUCKING BLOG, SO NOT HAPPY, GO FUCK OFF!! nyahaha....oh well too bad, soo sad...)

And i'm brilliant! i manage to get excellent finish, and once again you might not know what that means but nah, too lazy to explain. Next week will be CNC-M1 (and yeah you dun know what the freak that is)

HAHAHA this is sooo cool!!! i'm like talking a totally different "language" hehehe, aaah, now i know what it feels like to be nerdy...hehehe oh and as you might have noticed, im pretty high...hehehhe on what you ask?? on AIR!!! hahaha no lah no lah....ummm sssh keep this a secret kay! i brought LG to school...for those who knows what im talking bout then kudos to you...whahaha!

Omg, i'm like blabbering on and on like some crazy, high on LG, girl....oh wait...i am! pfft...haiz...now i just cant wait for Autocad to be over and i can SISHA and meet my besties!

Oh oh oh!! and NAD is attached!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAAHAHHAHAHA!!!, welll i guess its good this time coz i actually like the bloke. hahahha, anyhooo, i wish you guys will last *ahem* and definitely enjoy each others company and be in love! wooohoo! spread the love baybeh! hehehe, oh and yeah...zul congrats dood, you got urself a winner!! bt if you ever hurt my nadia, you will know how angry i am...hehehe (omg wtf? nak threaten tapi fail...oh no! WTF im typing malay shit!? OMG WTF!!! i blame you too zul!!!) oh and NAD!!! yay, dun fret! if it doesnt work out, i'll intro you to some cute/hot/handsome band people...hehehe (jgn marah...OMG!! WTF...MALAY AGAIN.....*wash mouth with soap*) That is the last time man...LAST!!!!

Hmmm okay lah seriously...

I wish you guys every happiness and love we have in the whole wide world (umm, thats not much...but still...will do lah!)

LOVE YA!!!!

gtg now...ugh...

PS: Im SOOO HIGH!!!

PPS: I think i'm going to crash even before i get sisha!! wahahaha!! OH WELL!!!!!!

PPPS: NUUUU I WANT SISHA!!!!!!

PPPPS: Okay i shall stop here...

PPPPPS: for real now

WHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA (giler nyer!......OH NO!!!!! MALAY AGAIN!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!)

KOREAN LESSON!

2009-05-12T00:07:00.004+08:00

Korean Language class!!!

ahhaha, eventhough we were confused as fuck! we still managed to have a camwhoring session...hahaha

Now to do my korean homework!!! oh no!!

Dramatic Reading Of A Break-Up Letter

2009-05-11T23:28:00.002+08:00

Dramatic Reading Of A Break-Up Letter.

THIS IS SOOOOO FUCKING FUNNY!!! I CANT STOP LAUGHING WHEN I FIRST HEARD IT!!! hahahah you guys enjoy now!!!

Tired as FUCK

2009-05-10T17:15:00.002+08:00

Omg, i feel sooo dead now, even after my 15 hours of sleep....

Hmm, maybe its...naaah...

Sisha session

2009-05-09T00:36:00.004+08:00

Shoutout back!!

Dyana : HIE!!!! HAHA

Nad : Yeah....ram and paul twohill...hmmmmmmm

Audrey : Senai trip? theres a senai trip?!?! HAHAH when? what? and yeah EMO GUYS...HAWT!!!!! :D

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Okay anyways!! today was fun!!! Practical was awesome, dunnoe why, just like it....We got to take apart the gearbox and then assemble it back again....damn cool!! WEEEE!! hahahah apart from that, today was SISHA SESSION WITH My best buds, Jenna and nad oh and not forgetting nish (jennas boyfriend) and ram (just an extra...wahahhaha!)

Been such a long time since we all went out for a good long sisha session and catching up! hahah, anyhooo!! ummm, i forgot what i wanted to say already...see lah! Some of the pictures taken during Sisha session with my mac using photo booth!! hahah

hmmm....oh yah. Murphy hates me lah....aiyoh....is this my punishment for going out with alot of hot guys?! NOT MY FAULT RIGHT!!! haiz....sigh....haiz....sigh....alamak...haiz...sigh...

So apart from that!! nth much to talk about...life is pretty good...slowly picking up i guess...but i'll get there...later than sooner....yay me! uuh...i think all the smoke got to my head...but nuu!! i mean like...its just sisha pfft!

Gonna crash....or maybe not.....see ya dear people!!!!!

IS, Auction, Tora Payoh!

2009-05-07T22:09:00.003+08:00

Today was an extra fun day!

I always look forward to thursdays coz of my IS module. IS stands for Inter-disciplinary studies. And This sem, i got Communication Toolkit! This module basically teaches us the how to do presentation, communicating well with others and some cultural thingy (dun ask me why bout the last one, i'll have to say "coz singapore is a multi-ethnic society!" pfft!)

And knowing me, i love to talk, love to communicate and voice out my opinions and just be vocal i guess! So the topic i got was Stereotyping, surprise, surprise...hahha and well, i didnt really need to list down alot for me to get started on the topic. Didnt have time to talk about all that i wanted though but its okay! I got a 4.5/5 sooo its not that band man!! pretty awesome!

After, we headed to the atrium and there was some auction thingy going on and i managed to get a laptop case, i cant remember what brand...i think it cost ard 25 bucks in normal merchandise stores but i got it for only 2 bucks! hahaha the dood pitied me enuf not to prolonged the auction till he got someone who would raise up the price, hahah.

Anyways, after that, met ram at makan place (I MADE HIM WAIT FOR ME FOR NEARLY AN HOUR AND A HALF!) nyahahhaa! okay so i met him at makan place along with paul (yeah the twohill) as well as some other indian friend of pauls. After that, ram and i made our way to toa payoh coz i had to exchange some things for my macbook.

Fun part coming up!

I saw a pasar malam near the central and dragged rams ass there with me! hahah, ended up playing one of those pasar malam games where theres 5 cans and you are suppose to knock them off the table thingy to win the prize. Guess who won??

HAHA MUA!!! RAM YOU SUCK!!! hahah i got some pick-up-sticks thingy and ram only got a bookmark...NYAHAHAHHA!!! saddd!

Dinner at mos burger and yeah, the place where ram apologized and fucking squirm like a worm for forgiveness (dun deny it lah ram...) and wow what an awesome moment it was....bloody priceless man....should go down in the book of records since we are talking bout ram the bloody as hell egoistic bugger.

All in all, todays a pretty fun day! presentation, laptop case for 2 bucks and make rams life hell...YAY!!!

EMO

2009-05-05T22:54:00.003+08:00

EMO GUYS ARE FUCKING HOT!!!!

hahah, so shoot me man...but pheew....they are! i love their hair and their style...the attitude and personality maybe not soo much but okay i'm just talking bout their looks kay!

I know some of you might be thinking WTF right...hahah well, different people different taste i guess. Some like clean, smart-looking guys, some like slacker skater boy looking guys, and so on and so forth. I for one really like the emo look...sorry lah!! not my fault right...and their snake bites just make me want to bite thier lip...hahaha, oookay oookay TMI much!!

I'll let the pictures do the talking!!

but one thing i realise...alot of emo guys are gay huh....i see alot of pic of them kissing other guys....like WOAH MUCH!!! gays are hot, so its okay i guess...

THE MAN CAN GO TAKE WHAT I JUST SAID AND SCREW IT UP YOU ASSES!!! pfft

Better

2009-05-05T21:19:00.001+08:00

I fell better!!!!!

So so much better. Amazing how something so small but meaningful could turn ones feelings in the opposite direction.

walking dead (literally)

2009-05-04T22:34:00.004+08:00

I'm pretty stoned right now.

For the past few days, i've not been sleeping well or at all.....reason being....

I'm barely even half awake now, I don't get past half the day without feeling lethargic or sleepy or just brain-dead. A peaceful feeling actually, not thinking - no wonder alot of people don't think. Theory is, if you are tired, you don't have the energy to feel or think as a normal human do, and in time, when you are really fucking tired, you dun feel or think at all. Not like a human at all. AT ALL.

Been curious how that'll feel like, so why not give it a try. Okay, thats total bull, haha, i KNOW what it feels like. Just miss it you know? I guess you don't...hah.

The process is pretty draining but once you reach that level or stage whatever you want to call it, you dun think about it, your mind just shuts down and someone else take over and you sleep in bitter oblivion. Then suddenly, you'll wake up from your deep slumber and you've never been better, you've never seen clearer. Everything is crystal clear. Everything

No hope. No worries. No nothing. Just you and the world. You know whats what. Pretty awesome deal for a few sleepless nights.

However, once you're under, theres no telling when you'll snap out of it. Once you tried it, you'll want to do it again and again and again. A never ending cycle. A never ending cycle you'd want to break out of but keep getting suck into the whirlpool.

Do i want out? or lets go for the ride one more time?

PS: AND EH FUCK....NOT EMO MAN

Jenna's GDI Pics! (well at least some of it)

2009-05-02T22:07:00.005+08:00

Some of the many many photos taken during Jennas GDI!! It was awesome meeting the gang again after a very very long time! hahha i don't think i've ever laughed soo much ever since we met up the last time...haiz...i love you guys!!! Cant wait for the next GDI or gathering! yay! :D

Ngee Ann Poly Student HERE!

2009-04-22T22:58:00.002+08:00

Before you say it or ask, the answer is yes, i'm taking korean as my third language. Since i'm sooo in love with korean fav k-pop/hip-hop BIG BANG! and also love watching certain korean dramas, learning and pronouncing korean is not as difficult as i though. After my first BASIC lesson, i could read and write the basic korean characters. I could even understand some words. Woohooo!

Okay enough about my enrichment module, other than that, as you may or may not know, i'm in Aerospace Technology. I was kinda dreading it coz i thought it'll be another physics class only more in depth but im surprised that its not like that at all, i mean of course theres some physics applied and stuff in Thermofluids but it was pretty okay...wasnt that bad... And the other modules such as engineering maths, i've learnt in secondary school so it comes naturally to me. Mechanics, airspace manufacturing and a few other modules are pretty interesting (surprisingly).

And in addition, my class is starting to warm up to each other so hopefully it wont be long till we break the ice! hahah. hmmm all in all, poly is sooo sooo different than econdary school and i bet JC as well. In poly, you have to constantly check ur Mel (sth like student mail) for announcements and updates. The lecture might just post out announcement saying he cant make it for the lesson on Mel instead of telling to our class face to face. So i guess its pretty important for us to check our Mel everyday (haiz....)

Poly is pretty scary in a sense if ure not the independent type and rely on teachers and friends. As for me, i pretty much like the teaching plan and learning structure of poly life. Soo much more, REAL if i may say so...

Lecturers are awesome! some are pretty dull but cute none the least (cute as in, those old geezers with cute flabby cheeks and blur eyes, hahha). In poly another major difference is that, you can do whatever you want. Sms, call, sleep in class you name it man. On the first day of school and my first lesson, my lecturer mrs wong, she was like "if you want to sleep, go ahead, i know you guys are tired but after the lesson just come to me so you can borrow my transparency"

I mean like WTH right! hmmm all in all poly life is awesome, not what i expected it to be but still awesome.

YAY FOR POLY!

PDAs = Puking Disgusting Appalling?

2009-04-13T14:21:00.005+08:00

What are your thoughts on PDA?

Are they acceptable? Or should it be done behind close doors?

In my opinion, PDAs are quite acceptable but depending on the level of intimacy shown, i mean keep it PG 13 PLEASE! Some couples go for the kill and land a mouth-slobbering kiss on each others lips, some groping actions and some even do stuff which are obscene and emotionally and visually scarring. That then crosses the line of PDAs to FREAKISHLY-EEW-GET-A-ROOM!! moments.

However, after saying that much about PDAs, i still find myself thinking that its perfectly okay to see a good looking couple exchanging a peck or two or something like that.

BUT!! i find myself horrified and almost having to control my stomach if i spot an ugly looking couple doing the same thing. I don't know why but its more UN-presentable for them to do so.

hey, hey, hey, this is my opinion, if you think i'm a basket, then....oh well, actually i am...sooo yeap! :P

Okay let me just tell you of an incident that only unfortunate me and my mum and maybe some others who were there at that point of time. We were queuing for the bus when my mum suddenly flinched and told me to look behind me. Upon turning, i caught this couple licking each other on the mouth and on the cheeks, LITERALLY!! The dood was sticking out his tongue and licking his girlfriends mouth and cheeks. I MEAN WHAT THE FUCK DOOD!!!! And thats not the worse of it, They must have been the ugliest looking couple i've ever seen, i'm not fucking kiddin. They both were uberly FAT and UGLY I'm not being a bitch(though i am one) i'm just being painfully honest

I turned back to face my mum and did an exaggerated shiver. HAHA and thats what got me and my mum talking bout PDAs. The way my mum puts it, if the couple behind me were at least good looking, it wouldn't really have appeared THAT obscene. An point of view which i totally agree on!! Though its still not acceptable to go licking ur partners face like a freaking hungry ass in public! I still have to say it would have been much better if they were at least good looking.

Dun Call Me A Basket!! Why dun you choose between these two then

A) A fat, near to obese couple with pimple face and fat fish lips with their tongue sticking out causing their cheeks to puff up like a puffer fish(imagine mrs puff from spongebob, HAHA) licking each others faces.

B) A presentable, near to good looking couple with flawless skin and shapelier figures and decent physical features licking each others faces.

Which one would you pick? Too bad there no option for neither. To pick option A) is just too horrifying and to upsetting for the stomach. At least B) isnt THAT much better, its still better then option A)

Well, back to the story, I couldnt stop cracking jokes about them to my mum, i mean come on la...they freaking asked for it okay, behaving the way they did in public!

I mean by just looking at the couple what i could deduce from the scene was that the Fat Boyfriend was really hungry and since they had no food with them at the time (awww....soo sad...) he decided to lick off his Fat Girlfriends face and maybe that would help him sustain his hunger till maybe they get home and she cook him dinner or buy him dinner. And ALSO, the Fat Girlfriend didnt seem to mind it coz apparently she is trying to lose some weight. By getting her Fat boyfriend to eat parts of her, she will eventually lose some fat/meat! VOILA! And THATS how the cookie crumble...

I couldnt help but be a basket and feed him and her lines. It was hilarious yet extremely gross at the same time. Really, really gross.....

Soo...PDA or no PDA? hahah

Dark Times and Nursery Rhymes

2009-04-12T20:30:00.012+08:00

Do you still remember the nursery rhymes taught to you in pre-school?

As kids, we just followed and repeat and due to the OH SO NICE SOUND of the nursery rhymes, we sometimes even chant it or say it for the fun of it. But learning all these nursery rhymes, have you ever wondered whats the story or the message or the lesson behind nursery rhymes.

Have you ever wondered whether the poems comes from someones over imaginative mind or whether it was based on a true event. Nursery rhymes serve as a way to educate little children about historical as well as daily events. However, do you know the meaning behind the nursery rhymes that we often recite?

The oh so popular "Humpty Dumpty", "Ring around the roses" and "Jack and Jill Went Up The Hill"

Humpty Dumpty

Many would think that Humpty Dumpty was a man due to the popular illustration of a egg-man sitting on a wall.
However, Humpty Dumpty is not a person at all

Humpty Dumpty is actually a Huge Cannon used in the English Civil War in the Seige of Colchester. The town of Colchester was a walled town. Standing exactly adjacent to the city walls was St. Mary's Church. A huge cannon called Humpty Dumpty was strategically placed on the wall.(humpty dumpty sat on a wall)

So the story goes that a shot by one of the opposing party's cannon managed to collapse the wall causing the cannon to tumble to the ground(humpty dumpty had a great fall) And the cavaliers(all the kings men) tried to raise the cannon but to no avail due to the massive weight (couldnt put humpty together again). And therefore leading to the surrender of the strategically located town of Colchester.

Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall
All the King's horses and all the King's men
Couldnt put Humpty Together again

Ring Around The Rosy

This particular nursery rhymes refers to an epidemic, the Bubonic plague AKA The Black Death. One of the few symptoms of the Black Death is that the carrier of the disease included a rosy red rash in the form of a ring on the carriers skin (Ring around the rosy). One of the many beliefs was that the disease was transmitted through bad smells, therefore people carry pocket or pouches full of sweet smelling herbs (posies) with them. And the term "Ashes, Ashes" refers to the cremation of dead bodies. The death rate was as high as 60% and the plague was only stopped by the Great Fire of London in 1666 which killed the rat that transmitted the disease via water source.

Ring around the rosy
A pocketful of posies
"Ashes, Ashes"
We all fall down

Jack And Jill Went Up The Hill

Jack and Jill are to be said as King Louis XVI (Jack) and Queen Marie Antoinette (Jill). During the Reign of Terror in 1793 "Jack" was beheaded (lost his crown) and not long after, "Jill" suffered the same fate (Jill came tumbling after).

Jack and Jill went up the hill to fetch a pail of water
Jack fell down and lost his crown
And Jill came tumbling after

Mary Mary Quite Contrary

Mary in this nursery rhyme refers to Mary Tudor AKA Bloody Mary (google it up if you're interested enuf), daughter of King Henry VIII. Queen Mary was a staunch Catholic and the garden mentioned in the rhyme is actually an illusion of a graveyard which is increasing in size with those who who dared to continue to adhere to the Protestant Faith.

Silver bells and Cockle shells are instruments of torture. The Silver Bells were thumbscrews which crushes the thumb between two hard surfaces by the simple tightening of a screw. The Cockle shells were instruments of torture which were attached to the genitals.

And the "maids" was actually a device to behead people called The Maiden. As beheading a person could take up to 11 blows(cruel much!) and that the person in question usually instinctively resisted and had to be chased around the scaffold and hacked by the Executioner, this device was invented(now known as the guillotine) to solve the problem.

Mary Mary quite contrary
How does your garden grow?
With Silver bells and Cockle shells
And pretty maids all in a row

Well, theres actually more nursery rhymes that i could talk about, all having links to historical events just like the ones above, but i guess i'm too lazy to actually blog about all of them. So, you can just google it up and prolly find some interesting facts of your own.

Cool, huh?

My Way

2009-04-12T13:04:00.003+08:00

2 mistakes and counting...

2 FUCKING major mistakes...

And the only way out?

Is My Way.....

Hope..what a load of bull

2009-04-09T00:31:00.005+08:00

Alamak, bloody hell luhh....

After tossing and turning like some maniac on my bed, i finally gave up and decided to just stare at my ceiling and drown myself in the loud post-hardcore music i turned on.

Tonight is like every other night, i just surround myself with darkness and just zone out before finally drifting off to sleep...
Usually i'll just keep awake and tire myself out so that by the time i lie on my bed i'll just knock out in a few minutes. But not tonight i guess, the usual routine of staring off into space while letting my music blast in my ears but not really listening to it....thinking of...oh well, this and that...

Hope a funny word huh? Some believes in it, some don't and some just don't give a shit bout it. Which category do i fall under? hmmm, maybe i do believe in it but then again maybe i don't or maybe i shouldn't even bother hoping, why hope? Hope are for the weak, those that can't and don't do anything about shit...that's why they hope...they don't have the power to control the situation therefore they only hope things turn out for the better...hah

ME? I don't hope, if the situation gets better, good then and if it doesn't then i say FUCK IT I dun sit back and just let "FATE/DESTINY" take its course, i make my own destiny...nobody is going to tell me my future is all set and pass me a freaking contract all printed in black and white expecting me to sign it and lay over like a a bitch learning new tricks.

Hoping is a waste of time....Why hope when you can try and do something about it? If it doesnt work out, oh well freaking move on then...see? you dun have to fucking hope that the situation will change, you CHANGE IT.

"I let go. Lost in oblivion. Dark and silent and complete. I found freedom. Losing all hope was freedom. "

I can't agree with this more...Without hoping, you dun expect anything and dun have ridiculous wishful thinking that everything will turn out like that fucking fairy tale ending you watch in movies or read in books. You and I know why its there in the first place, to provide people, who cant handle the fact that the world is a fucked up place with a temporary escape from this world filled with disappointment and darkness...

I know some of you may strongly disagree and that i may have pissed certain people off, but oh well this is my blog and this is my opinion, so sue me. When the day comes when a damn human being cant have an opinion of their own...its prolly the day where the C_______ grow big dicks, the B_______ dun smell like shit and MATS (this one i can say) dun think about sex all day...HAH fat chance that happening!

P.S : you can assume whatever the blanks are....i did not say it, you were the ones who thought of it

HUZZAH!

2009-04-07T20:28:00.006+08:00

HUZZAH!!!!!

I have just installed Windows Vista onto my Macbook, boot camp all the shit and stuff and most importantly, i did it ALL BY MYSELF!!! wahahahah!! this is the day where pigs fly and hell freezes over!!

ME, Nurul Ameera, I actually installed Windows onto my Mac without anyones help! WOOOHOOOO!! and those of you wondering why its a big deal and all....well let me tell you one thing, I have not a clue of half the shit that goes on in my computer and i am absolutely useless when it comes to computers and shit like this. But here i am, sitting on my bed after just installing windows onto my mac! Oh what an exciting day it is for Me! hahaha

On a totally separate note, today was an interesting day....

let me tell you why...

Being me, i woke up at 2pm in the afternoon to my phone ringing "the flood" by Escape the fate (AWESOME BAND!!!) and well, that means 1 new MSG!!

squinted my eyes to see who the hell msges me at 2pm in the freaking afternoon (hahah) and it was Solehin i think thats how his name is spelt) and the msg reads like this :

"3:30 pm. Xcraft tp"

took me awhile to figure out what the hell that means...haha(eh! i just awoke from my sleep okay! i'm allowed to be slow you S.O.Bs!) so since i did promise this dood that i'll meet up with him some day, i figured i'll fulfill my promise today and get it over and done with since i had nth else better to do today anyways....

pretty interesting fella this dood...ended up talking bout all kinds of bullshit we could think of...but i have to say, it was quite insightful, hahaha yeah right, about some of the stuff we talked about....fun coz i actually have to focus when talking to him, if i got distracted just for a sec, i'll miss a whole part of the conversation...hahaha

Some of the stuff we talked about were controversial and ironic....i love his sacarstic sense of humor, always keep me guessing....

all in all, i had a preeeeettty interesting day....

weird but interesting...

ECP BABIES outing

2009-04-06T22:58:00.005+08:00

Hey Peeps!!

I've just finished watching this movie called "Harold and Kumar : Escape From Guantanamo Bay" and i have to say that it's a preeeeetty interesting movie though its really retarded at the same time! Why i watched it? I decided my body and brain are too tired for me to watch something serious or mind boggling and shit like that.

MY ASS HURTS!!!!

hahaha and why the hell am i telling you that?! oh well, to clear it all up (coz i know what some of you are thinking...SHUT UP!!!) Today was my Freshman Group Outing at ECP. It was an ooookay day i guess, pretty boring and tiring but at least i got to know those people there much much better!

It poured like FUCK there and we were caught in it. So deciding to not let the rain ruin our plans, we locked our bags away in the provided lockers and cycled in the rain watching everyone else huddled in the shelter starring at us like we were a bunch of loons.

By the end of the day, our legs were aching and our butts sore, we made our way to the makan place thingy and ordered just some seafood and individual dishes. And thats where i met MR. Mohawk...first thing i noticed when i walked in was the tall standing hair whose owner was sitting comfortably at one of the tables with some of his friends. haha. Awesome hair man....

Anywhoo, while i walked around to check out what food there is, he suddenly came up behind me and kinda scared the living shit out of me....wth lah....sooo yeah...the story continues from there....

Thats mostly what happened during the group outing...hahah....

hmmmm....i wonder...nvm....

P.S : I think i might be getting sick

P.P.S : But i dun want too!!!!

INDUCTION!

2009-04-04T22:08:00.002+08:00

OKAY INDUCTION!!!

All the students from the Mechanical Engineering Division were there at 9am in the air conditioned Lecture hall. All not knowing who's the dood or doodette( rare case btw) sitting next to them.

It was a pretty great day for me at least, ahhah i made loads of fun, Lawyer Burok people there, some from my course and some from another. There were some activities and buffet all. I have to adit the Buffet SUCKS ASS but the company more then made up for it! hahha

At the end of the day, saying goodbye to them was kinda sad but i did go homw with some new found friends who might very well be my classmates!! hahaha

now i cant wait for POLY!! haha

Sticks and Stones Will Break My Bones?

2009-03-30T00:44:00.000+08:00

Sticks And Stones Will Break My Bones But Words Will Never Hurt Me

And the million dollar question is, WHO IS THE IDIOT WHO CAME UP WITH THIS?

Just a few days agos(ahem...) someone said something really hurtful though not to me directly but it still had the power to make me fell really torn apart that someone could and would say that. I know they do not understand but thats another deadly weapon other than words.

Ignorance.

The world is filled with lots of different people i guess, those who understands, those who don't, and those who don't give a damn. It's best if you come across the first and good ifg you come across the latter but you're damn unlucky if you come across the last one.

Coz they'll act like they understand but rarely do. To them, the world revolves around them and ONLY them. Others come second or last and they say words that they know will hurt the other party but dun give a damn bout it.

I some times get fed up by these people but most of the time i seize to care, coz caring takes up soo much energy which could be put to good use rather then concerning myself with what people say. Just that sometimes the people you thought as friends says those stuff bout you and it just puts you off balance. IF you cant trust them, then whats the point of being friends in the first place.

I keep catching myself wondering that i'll be better off alone without anyone. Don't depend on anyone coz no one is dependable. Depend only on oneself and NEVER ever get too comfortable with someone coz you never know when he/she will let you down.

I'm soo sick and tired of this....

Trust...hah...what is it anyway?

FOC

2009-03-29T14:00:00.003+08:00

ANUBIS OI!!

SAH(sth like that lah..haha) !!!!

ANUBIS OIII!!!

HZZ-SAH! (again, sth like that...)!!!

ANUBIS OOOIII!!!

WE ARE THE BEST AND WE KILL THE REST!!!

*alternate version*

WE ARE THE BEST AND WE TRASH THEIR ASS!!!

It's been 2 days since the end of NPSU FOZ 09/10 Camp and for the most part of it, it was awesome, meeting new people from different courses and schools. However, not all part of the camp were fun coz we had to wait around ALOT...and i meant ALOT!

Anyhooo, I shall get into details of events worth mentioning instead of listing it all out all of it like some stoopid ass..hahah

Day 1

EVENT #1

Upon reaching the venue (we were an hour late by the way...ooopsie! haha) we were lead to The sports complex where we were separated into different groups and then sub-groups. Nad was poested to HORUS aka God of The Sky and I was posted to ANUBIS aka The God of Death (really love my group name btw...wahahah)

So after, we played the "Cinderella" Game

We had to blindfold ourselves and the GLs would randomly pair us up with the opposite gender and of course there were some unlucky souls who got paired up with the same gender. hahha. Anyhooo, i was paired up with this dude named Jivevin and from the get-go we talked and talked like we knew each other since forever, haha, even the GLs asked whether we knew each other before hand. The Meanie GLs called us the worst pair they ever came across coz we were tooo talkative, hahha WTF. So then they suddenly made my partner lie down on the ground and took a chair and placed it so that he's inbetween the legs of the chair and made me sit on top of the chair, but little did i know they were taking pictures of it...WTH lah...

Our partners then became our MASS DANCE PARTNERS!!

Event #2

MASS DANCE!!! wahahhah FUN FUN FUN!!! The steps were extremely EASY and Jive and I kept making our own steps to make it cooler ahhaha, Jive is a hip-hop dancer (i think) and i'm just awesome! hahahha

Event #3

COMING SOON WAS DA BOMB!!! HAHAHHA!!! people kept screaming...gosh...wth....just a movie...and all throughout the movie i kept telling my friends how CIOBU the "GHOST" is....SOOO BODOH LAh!! hahah and apparently the stoopid sound system kept cocking up so i decided to entertain my friends by making my own dialog, hahhah funny sia...

Event # 4

NIGHT WALK!!!! wahahha, it was the lamest thing ever ever ever....well my male partner is lame lah...Made me walk infront and he follows from way way way back. And when The GLs ask why, i shouted across the block to tell them he was a coward! hahah, night walk, nothing much i guess...saw STUFF as usual...not shocking anymore...booohooo :( BUT BUT!! the EXCITING THING IS!!! BLK 50 is the MOST MOST MOST Haunted block in NGee ANn, and guess what? Its my block! WAHAHAH

END OF DAY 1

Day 2

Event #1

We had games!! and the stations were fun!

Station 1 : was sOOO GROSS!! there was this pail filled to the brim with squid, bbq sauce, oyster sauce and tomato sauce and shit like that, the smell was horrible!! and we had to submerge our hand into the pail to find a marble in 30 secs, i wasnt disgusted by putting my hand in there but the smell was awful and i wanted to puke after that..hahah

Station 2 : MUD SLIDE!!! hahah, this was extremely fun! there was this huge sheet of plastic laid on the hill and they splashed soap, water to make it slippery and at the end of the whole slide was a pool of mud! hahha and as usual, i was the first girl to go and did a body surf! hahh awesome stuff man!

other stations were okay i guess...hahah

End Of Day 2

Day 3

Event #1

Water games!!!! infiltrate the base games, it was extremely fun though i manage to stay dry for most part of the game,i got nad with a water bomb!! WHEEEEEEEE!!! hahahha it was funny!!!

Event #2

Campfire!!! it was okay i guess i only paid attention to my group skit hahah, oopsie!!

Event #3

HOPNITE!!! hahah OMFG affin awesome time! steph, nad and i started opening up circles which somehow get broken by peopl who dont know what the hell a cirle is for in the first place! hahah well, all in all it was a freaking awesome night!

After HOPNITE which ended like at 3 am, we had OWN TIME OWN TARGET! and we are to sleep at our own risk! hahha those who slept got their legs, arms vandalised and faces smeared toothpaste...sad sad man...bored souls man...hahhaa anyways i slept anyways but nth happened to me coz nad was there to protect me!! WHEEEE I LOVE YOU NAD!!!

End Of Day 3

Day 4(last day)

Going home time!! it was really sad, loads of our GLS cried and we had this emo sing along session as well as picture taking session, both took a hell lot of a time...and in the end the camp ended...was kinda a biuttersweet moment...I'll definitely miss all my GLs as well as the many many friends i made at the camp and i was also thankful it was over coz that means MY OWN COMFY BED TO SLEEP ON AGAIN!!!! WHEEEE!!

hahahha, anyhooooooooo, just wanna give a shout out to BABIES GLS, Doreen, David and las tbut not least MANNAN!!!!! I MISS YOU GUYS!!! and also to the awesome BABIES!! hahahha

FOC 09/10 ROCKED!!!

Sticks and stone will break my bones?

2009-03-23T14:48:00.005+08:00

Belated Bdae Chalet!

2009-03-20T21:13:00.005+08:00

Oh My Affin Gawd.

The day that Nad and I had prepared for weeks before has finally passed. However i keep thinking to myself why must time fly by soo fast when we're having ABSOLUT *hehehe* fun!

Well, organising and carrying out the chalet plans and such is soo stressing coz i kept trying to make sure everyone is having enuf food and fun at the same time.

Since i dun wanna bore you guys to death, i shall just highlight certain events thats worth mentioning haha. It WAS SOO MUCH FUN!! (maybe a lil too much)

Event #1

Cake cutting ceremony?! hahah, well the awesome cake extraordinair, damien, baked me a birthday cake which was absolutely MOUTH ORGASMIC! hahah and i got to cut the cake with a scary looking knife AKA "Fluffy" damien's pet. AHHA

Event #2

In order to cut the cake without much fuss, Damien had to sharpen his "Fluffy". So in the room full of guys busily talking, he entered and mumbled sth russian-ish before proceeding to sit at one corner of the room and starts sharpening his "Fluffy" while looking at the guys. The room fell deathly silent with all the guys in the room turning and staring at Damien. HAHA! WTH...

*imagination going wild*

Damien:Hmmm, So Which one of you suckers going first? (while giving his attention to the knife he is sharpening)

Guys: *Audible Gulps* Before Running out of the room screaming like girls.

HAHAHA!!

Event #3

While Hanging outside as a whole group, we made a bet with Ram that he WILL NOT last 15 mins without saying a single swear word. Soo we tried our utmost best to irritate the shit out of him.

Key Weaknesses
1)Piercings
2)Hair
3)Gayness/Pansy-ness/Wussie-ness (WTH...hahaha)

"Ram your piercings are sooo gay! They are ugly"
"Ram your hair looks soo lame, it sucks...lame lah..."
"Ram...i think you are like Arvind"
ETC.ETC.

But to no avail :(

So we decided to stop insulting him and just start a normal, "civilised" conversation. Danial, apparently the victim here, started talking to him normally and Ram slipped the F word. Oh-Oh, Ram lost the bet and owes me yet another forfeit! woohooo! And Danial got smacked. hahahha (poor thing)

Event #4

Ram being the idiot that he is, just HAD to do something stoopid and that something involved a bottle of Tobasco and His stomach. The Stoopid Fool just had to down the whole bottle of ToBasco. Gosh, for what? R.E.S.P.E.C.T. AND he must go without water for 2 mins, it was a classic moment, one that i'll always remember coz it Ram CRIED!!! hahahha okay lah, not cry, Teared, but oh well, close enuf. Videos of this event was recorded, wahahah, BLACK MAIL!! BLACK MAIL!!!

Event #5

Those who stayed over got bored and decided to go to OCH just for the hell of it. Mainly Nad,Jerome,Siddiq,Zul,Ram,Damien,Venka,Danial and Me. Once we got in we kinda stood around and finally got creeped out and decided to leave. Plus the fact that it was MALAM JUMAAT *jeng jeng jeng* and also that the cops suddenly came, hahha. Pheew, didnt get caught!

There are many, many other events that took place on the night of the chalet but i shall stop here. hahha

I hope the chalet was a success? alah alah, fine lah, a moderately good Chalet at least! hahah And i hope that those who could make it to the chalet had a blast.

Thanks for coming and for the gifts as well!!

You guys are truly Awesome!!

P.S: Special Special Thanks to NAdI NUTS who planned, organised and making this chalet happen! I LOVE YOU!!!! hahha

OMFG!!!BOW DOWN

2009-03-17T02:36:00.003+08:00

OMFG!!!

Check out the cool and sexy moves by these umm boys of about 8-10 years of age? wow they even put beyonce to shame! HAHA!! Awesome stuff man, i love the boy in the orange shorts and also te overall white one with red tie..hahha i think they danced splendidly and NO I AINT NO PEDO!! hahha

SOOOO AWESOME!!!

Liverpool! Outstanding Match

2009-03-15T23:57:00.002+08:00

Hey!!

Okay, i know its late and i bet theres like loads of other people who've posted about this, but oh well, this is for my sake!!

LIVERPOOL WON!!!!

It was a pretty amazing match! Who would have thought a score of 4-1 at the end of the match!

I have to say that Man-U was a lil sloppy, not that i know much bout soccer and i'm not taking anyone sides here, i'm a rugby girl, but the last goal was a total WTH!??!? The keeper should have and COULD have blocked the ball. Well thats just my oppinion lah...haha

Anyways, it was a really interesting match, maybe i shall start watching soccer instead of just rugby only...hahaha

Liverpool, 4-1 against Man-U, WHAT ARE THEY UP TOO MAN???

I guess We'll just have to wait and see huh? hahahha

Love you bro

2009-03-12T22:39:00.002+08:00

I miss my brother!!!!!!!!

Okay so today was THE day where my brother enlisted to the army and where he will change from "BOYS to become MEN" Oh WOW!! hahha

Watching the oathing ceremony and such made me tear up a lil coz i really reminded me of the days i had in NPCC and when we used to recite our pledge. The camaraderie and those stuff, being in a squad/platoon...haiz...the good old days...

Anywho, back to the current topic, well after that we got to have lunch with each other before we have to leave PULAU TEKONG. Oh yeah i forgot to mention that right, my brothers camp is on Pulau freaking Tekong!

While the enlistees were having lunch with their families, some were there alone. I felt sooo sad for them, eating alone while watching the others being fussed over by parents, siblings, partners...it was seriously heartbreaking. There was one guy who sat one table away from us, eating his lunch alone and i decided to ask my brother to go talk to him and make a friend so that he wont feel sooo alone. And being the good-hearted person he is, he went, and realised that that dude was going to be his bunk mate, surprise surprise huh?

so after saying our farewells, they fall-in at the parade square and finally marched towards (i dunnoe where). And we finally head home.

and now is only 11pm on the SAME day, and i already miss my brother really badly....its just soo different without him ard...i have no one to really take care off, i feel soo lost and useless right now... hahha

i guess i'll have to deal with it and just wait till he gets back!!!

I LOVE YOU BRO!!!

this post is dedicated to all the guys/gals serving the counrty and especially to my BROTHA (DUH!!!)

P.S: I got an ipod touch!!!!

P.P.S: but i feel soo stoopid using it...hahahha

Uneventful Day, NOT!!!

2009-03-10T23:42:00.004+08:00

Halo people

Today was an okay day i guess, a day where i could relax a lil...firstly, i met up with my besties nad and ashes who was accompanied by Amelia, Ashes saving grace as i might call it, hahha

and we made our way to school! why why why? to collect our SGCs

STUDENT GRADUATION CERTIFICATE

And on it was some testimonial written by my very own form teacher the LOVELY MDM SHAHERAH!!!

hahaha and when i read my own testimonial, i felt very impressed with myself, HAHA!!

I mean i do agree that i've done most of the things written there but the way it was phrased made it look grander then it actually is...hahaha all in all it was a great effort put in by my beloved MDM Shaherah, hahha, and i thank you for bullshit-ing some stuff for me! :P

Anywhos, my testimonial was pretty long since it consisted both front and back page of the paper thingy, hahaha, i guess theres alot of bullshit you can say bout me huh? hahah

After, we went to macs for dinner, well they had dinner while i waited for my brother so we cold go to IICHIBAN(i think thats how its spelt..haha) and yeah since he's going off for NS at PULAU TEKONG (oh the poor kid..haha) i decided to give him a treat.

Dinner was awesome as always, and then we made our way home and thats where he started telling me all his problems being in a relationship...

I only have one thing to say, THANK GOD I'M SINGLE! hahhaa or else i'd have to put up with all this petty fights and bullshitz...gosh i dunnoe how they do it man..

Words of wisdom

Relationship Sucks The Life Out Of Ya!!

But that doesnt mean i cant date around!! :P *wink wink*

P.S: I got my eye-candy for 2 years number when i bumped into him on the bus earlier today. YAY! :D

P.P.S: but now i actually have to text him first...BOOOO!!!:(

P.P.P.S: Oh freak it...

Too many thoughts

2009-03-09T19:31:00.004+08:00

Hey, okay so i've decided to do another post today coz i seriously have no idea when is the next time i'll be posting shitz on my blog due to the HECTIC,HECTIC schedule i've been given for the next week.

Though i've not much time for my lonesome self, this thought has kept poking me(figuratively lah....dun be stoopid) ever since, hmm forever.

I keep wondering if people really value their life. If it makes sense to commit suicide over some problem that maybe you are not or never will be in control of. What is it really that makes them kill themselves? or even just to HURT themselves? What is it really that pushes one THAT FAR to cause physical harm to oneself?

I can't possibly ask them on a count that they ARE dead. So it really puzzles me.

are their problems THAT bad till they have to "ESCAPE" (as one might call it) by killing themselves or is it just sheer ignorance of the value of being alive that they think its nothing and could just kill themselves.

I sometimes wonder, since they've got balls to actually kill themselves, wouldnt they have the courage as well to face the problems that haunts them every waking hour? Or am i mistaken, that killing oneself doesnt require courage at all to actually take the final step in ending it all.

Maybe its the other way round, by not having courage at all to face their problems, they run away from it till there's no where else to run and in the end the only thing they can do is kill themselves.

But in my opinion, thats not really the case. For one to pull the trigger, for one to take that ONE step off the roof, for one to hold the razor and cut oneself i think that takes courage even though its used in a "bad/wrong" way, courage is still courage. Or maybe its just that sudden burst of courage to end it all. hmmm, interesting really if you think of it.

I've had friends who confide in me and telling me all their problems and at the end of it all they say they rather die than live and face the problem. And for some weird reason i always get pissed off when someone says that to me, especially after i hear the reason WHY they want to kill themselves over. It pisses me off coz they think life is nothing and can just give it up in a snap just coz of something sooo sooo petty. If they think that their problems are worth killing themselves over, then i wouldn't know what they'll do if they are faced with much serious and bigger problems some of us face in life.

Some people with worst off life find the means to survive, to ride it out coz they have a reason to live, to triumph and make a better life for themselves when the time comes. Thats one of the strong reasons why some of us put up with the shit life has thrown at us in hopes (more like determination) to make something better of our lives in the future.

These people, i admire and These people, i respect.

hmm even after the end of this post, i believe i'll still be haunted by these puzzling questions...

AWOL!! MUCH

2009-03-09T18:57:00.005+08:00

Tired...SOOOOO tired...

Hey guys, i'm soooo dead beat right now. I've been up most nights(like i've never done that since i was on break...but this is different) looking through documents after documents.

Sounds serious huh? Well, IT IS!!!

I've been typing out some(MOST) documents for my dad ever since i stopped school while waiting for poly to start. So anyhow, there's been some MAJOR, MAJOR, MAJOR error about all of the documents...(Stoopid MOFOs) So anyhow, i've been attending "meetings" cause they need to make sure that I know what the errors are so that i can correct them ASAP.

WTF LAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*mumbles* I better get paid EXTRA man....

Okay so i've been looking through all the documents and also attending this stoopid "meetings" where i seriously feel like a small kid in a room full of old-almost-dying son of a biatches.

All that i'm thankful for is that, this is all NOT MY FAULT

Nyehehehehe

I only typed out the documents given to me dood, the errors are made by some idiot who i guess about now is getting it from everyone. However, due to HIS/HER mistakes, I have to freaking suffer for it coz i have to sit in a room filled with OLD AND DYING PEOPLE!!!!

BORING MUCH!!

Anywho, some are quite nice to me, but the rest can just go and die lah!

Okay i'm sorry, i didn't realise that i was venting, hahah

Since i'm ashamed for having vent to all you people out there, i shall end my unsual post here.

P.S: I need sleep

P.P.S: This is freaking causing me to have eye bags..

P.P.P.S: Someone is going to die...

Past and Present

2009-03-05T10:04:00.019+08:00

Hey People!

What do you think of MY New Blogskin?

I decided to give my blog a lil sprucing up since its been awhile and also coz i'm bored to DEATH at home right now...
Anywho, I admit it's very simple but i guess taste change as time passes and besides, i was feeling simply-ish. HAHA! Wasnt in the mood for anything extravagant or IN-YOUR-FACE colourful!

As i've said before previously, how my blogskin turns out is soley due to my mood when i was doing up my blogskin. Its kinda unpredictable, how my blog is gonna turn up. :P

So anyhow, other than just sprucing up my blogskin just for the sake of having something to do, I also thought that maybe its a kinda symbolic gesture of change and how many of them i'll be experiencing soon.

I don't expect poly life to be anywhere similar to Secondary school life, nor do i expect to meet similar people as well. In the weeks to come, i'll be experiencing constant change and as much as i don't want it, i DO want it as well. No more the life of uniforms, of having my exclusive cliques(I still MISS YOU GUYS ALOT!) but hello to everything new and scary, haha. I'm sure in time, i'll get used to the changes but time cannot cure the ache of missing all my best friends who I've bonded with and who have accepted me in the four years I was in TK.

I'm certain we wont lose each other but not seeing each other as often as we used to will definitely make each one of us miss each other more and more.
Friends like them only come once in a lifetime and I don't wish to let them go that easily (hahaha, i sound like a PSYCHO CLINGY FRIEND....*shivers*)

So cheers to my new life, new friends and most importantly new beginnings.

And ALSO cheers to my best friends, the time we had together and to the the past.

Without a past, there wont be a present.

I LOVE YOU GUYS :P

3rd of march again

2009-03-03T03:20:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to me! happy birthday to me! happry birthday to meera! happy birthday

to me!

Yeap today is the day and its currently 3:30 am in the morning. I welcomed my

birthday bt going out to supper with Alisha my dancing freak friend, hahaha and we

went to macs since we lived near each other, and after got some drinks (heh heh heh)

and cheers to a whole lot of things man!

I wanna thank everyone who wished me happy birthday!

especially NAD and RAM who called at midnight to wish me happy birthday, hahaha soo

sweet of them hahaha, i love you guys!

Oh well, i'm 17 as of today and well thats it...dunnoe wassup for today but oh

well...lets wait and see....

BDAE UGH

2009-02-28T23:49:00.002+08:00

HALO!!!!!

Hey wassup people!

Okay i admit, i've not been putting in enuf effort to blog these days and well,

there is seriously nothing exciting happening in my life to blog bout! Other than

the Jason Mraz concert i'll be attending and MY BIRTHDAY which is on the 3rd of

March, yeap yeap, better remember the date! hahhaha

Okay so year after year we celebrate our birthday and year after year its the same

thing over and over again! However, for this year, thanks to my beloved BEST FRIEND

NADIA who deemed me important enough to throw me a Bdae Chalet Celebration kinda

thing.

I bet that both she and i cant wait for the chalet since we've been fretting over

the venue and the funds and now that its kinda confirmed, Nad deserve to sit back,

relax and enjoy the party! hahah

Hmmm other than the party, i'm really looking forward to meet up with my friends

who've been soo busy due to JC and other stuff....

YEAH!! OKAY I SERIOUSLY HAVE NTH ELSE TO TALK ABOUT!!!

~__~

booo

2009-02-23T04:06:00.001+08:00

LIFE is such a bugger!!!!!!!

POST HAPPY V DAY AND S.A.D!!!

2009-02-15T09:53:00.003+08:00

WELL, Singles Appreciation Day turned out to be a really really great day for me.

I attended RAM (my new found friend thanks to jenna) chalet along with jenna and nad.

The Chalet was fun from the get go, met alot of different new people! had and awesome

time there! Was really glad that i got to experience it, hahaha. Well, i'm not going

to try to paint you a picture of all the things that happened at the chalet coz its

simply indescribable. If you werent there, you missed out man!! hahha

One thing i can tell you bout the party itself was that it was very very interesting

with alot of very very interesting people. *wink wink* hahhaha

Well once again i hope you guys had a great valentines day or a great singles

appreciation day!!!

HAPPY V DAY AND S.A.D!!!

2009-02-14T14:21:00.003+08:00

Happy Singles Appreciation Day!!!!!

or otherwise notoriously known as VALENTINES DAY!!!

okay okay, valentines day are for those who have their special half. And for those

a gift to give their loved ones? why cant they give their loved ones gifts any other

day or every so often.

*thinks to myself*

Girl : Oh ho ho, its valentines day liao, yay get present! (FCUKER)

Guy : Haiz, valentines day again, what to buy?! (stoopid)

Girl : Eh honey, i want flowers, ring, dinner can can can!?

Guy : Aiyoh, die lah, money come out again, you think i what? ATM machine issit?

(stoopid)

Girl : HONEY!!!! you dun love me izzit?

Guy : haiz, okay lor okay lor, tonight i go rob someone first den we go out kay

(stoopid)

Girl : YAY!!!!

(i'm sorry bout the chinese accent...hahah i thought it was funny, so umm...i take

back the sorry! nyeheheheh)

HAHAHAHAHA!!! okay dun get me wrong, i'm not a valentines day hater but just the

people who thinks that today is only about receiving gifts and getting them in

return. The actual purpose of the celebration is forgotten, its just to spend time

and be close to the one you love.

Okay now thats done, i'm gonna talk bout SINGLES APPRECIATION DAY!! which ironically

is short for SAD hahahaha! WHAT THE HELL

RIGHT?!

Okay for those who are single and kicking, well you dun need that much help. BUT for

those of you who are single and SAD (lame pun intended...nyahahahha) okay i'll maybe

give some tips as to how to end your miserable lives (hahah just kiddin!)

In this first place, why the hell would i want to help people who are sulking coz

they cant get a date or coz they are single. Only STOOPID people do this! okay i'm

being to harsh, but its still the fact.

Get over it and enjoy your FREEDOM!!! while it last at least, coz you may find

someone special and go get yourself tied down in a relationship.

Okay so once again HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO ALL THE HAPPY COUPLES OUT THERE!!

and also HAPPY SINGLES APPRECIATION DAY TO ALL THE SINGLE GUYS AND GALS AND HAVE FUN

PARTYIN IT UP!!!

urgh

2009-02-11T22:43:00.000+08:00

I WANT TO HIT SOMEONE

urgh

2009-02-11T00:05:00.005+08:00

NEW HAIRCUT!!!

Yeap YEAP, i got a haircut! And i actually like it! usually i despise my new haircut

coz it will take some tme to get used to the ugliness but well, i like my new look

from the start, well not when the person blow dried my hair (SHE DID IT WRONG!) but

when i came home and blow dry my hair straight!

But this post it not really about my new haircut, thats just a lil FYI section for

you people...

the MAIN reason i'm bloggin right now is coz i've not been myself lately, i don't

know why, I feel very angry and can't be bothered most of the time, well i'm usually

like that what with this permanent frown engraved onto my face, but its a lil

different now, i feel that way towards those i love as well, my best buddies, my

family...

I don't know, right now i just have zero tolerance and i get irritated/annoyed very

easily. it sucks. To kinda feel hate ( i cant find a much mellower word...sry)

towards/for the ones you love.

I feel like i'm being controlled when no one is controlling me.

I feel like i'm being surpressed by everything.

Maybe its coz i've not been going out alot.

Maybe its coz all my pent up emotions.

Maybe its coz of THE FREAKING GOD DAMNED WORLD!!!

I don't know what to make of it. I just feel like shit right now. I do not know how

to describe what i'm feeling. Now i constantly feel the heaviness in my chest and its

hard to breathe. Even when i try to relax and lie down i still feel a lil uneasy and

that heavy feeling will come crawling back into my chest.

I just don't know what to think or feel anymore, its like the harder i try to forget

about it or suppress my emotions, the harder it hits me.

Let me put it simply, when you fill a bottle with something up till the brim, and you

keep filling it in, trapping it in sooner or later the bottle is gonna crack.

DAT is how i feel right now. I just cant fucking deal with this right now.

And after all this, what makes me more depressed...

I sound EMO, FUCK.

PS : I. AM. NOT. FUCKING. PMS-ING.

Quizzes

2009-02-09T15:55:00.006+08:00

HAHAH!! this is what i got on this quiz called "GOING TOO FAR?" on facebook! Good to

know i'm FUN!!! wahhaha

You have LAX BOUNDARIES.

You're very permissive in what's acceptable for you and others, making you an

exciting and spontaneous person, but often getting you into trouble

Cooking Bliss

2009-02-08T23:36:00.004+08:00

People! People! People!

I've been so bored rotting at home with nothing much to do, I've not left my house

for 4 days straight! and that is very impressive for those people who knows me

personally.

So instead of sitting down and doing nothing, i've decided to do something with my

time and believe it or not i have turn to baking and cooking to ease my mind before i

become insane not doing anything with my life.

And i've been waking up early as well, god only knows why, to cook/bake. I dunnoe its

just the feeling of it in the morning, the cool fresh air, the birds chirping and the

whole kitchen seem to glow...hahah okay i know i may sound crazy but there's

seriously is a huge ass difference between baking in the moning than baking at night

or in the afternoon. By then it'll be hot with the afternoon sun shining so high up

in the friggin sky and you'll be in the kitchen where the heat is on and hot and

you'll be sweaty...eeugh...

So far i've made a simple devils chocolate cake(from scratch) which turned out quite

okay, hahaha i'm not gonna say GREAT but it was pretty good for a first try, I cooked

my family an awesome 3 course dinner!!! Udon soup thingy for the starter and SUSHI

for the main course! hahaha (my great-grandmum ought to be proud of me!! :D haha) and

for dessert, i made this AWESOME non-fattening yogurt with berries and berry syrup

which i made myself! hahaha

Hmmm, i'm thinking of trying to make roasted potatoes with herbs and salmon with

white sauce....sounds mouth watering...maybe i shall try...hahha

I am beginning to really enjoy cooking and baking, its just the feeling i get when

someone else eats my food and says its really good or it taste delish, i get that

fuzzy feeling of being appreciated and i get soo proud of myself that i am able to

make someone feel that way. HAHAH you guys prolly think i'm NUTS but oh well....

The feeling of being appreciated is indescribable.

Make up Experiment #1

2009-02-05T02:42:00.005+08:00

OKAY!!!!!

Awesome people out there, I have just experimented with my new eye make up which i

bought at Parkway since i was there already to help my brother choose a valentine

gift for his GF for 2 years and plus plus months....GOSH!!

SOOOOOOO!!!! its the first time i'm doing this type of eye make up BTW!!! SOOO DUN

JUDGE!! hahaha, so anyhow, from different angles, i look like an emo/gothic chick!

hahaha. Anyways, the lighting kinda sucks, next time i'll try and do it again and

take some pics of it in a better lighting or maybe i shall just call nad and have me

some photo taking session! hahah soo anyhow, theres 2 colors on my eyes, black and

silver, You cant really see the silver but trust me its there, so its not only BLACK

if you are fretting bout that! hahha

ENJOY!!! and LAUGH YOUR HEARTS OUT!! hahaha

hahha hope you guys enjoyed that and had a good laugh!! ahha hey i'm still kinda

learning kay!!! hahah anyways!! nights!!

Shopping trip to JB!!

2009-02-05T01:51:00.009+08:00

Hey!!!

Okay i've just reached home from my family trip to JB! We set off to JB ard 3 pm for

the first time ever, usually we set off ard dawn, and i'd be cranky and shyte! hahha

so anyways, just before we stepped out of the house it started to pour!! like

seriously! It's been such a long time since it rained but anywho, MY HAIR WAS GONNA

GET WET!!!

NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!

hahah okay drama much, so we got into the car and made our way to JB!! on the way, i

got bored and started cam whoring with my brother hahaha.

Here are some of the photos!! I'm A NARCISSIST!!!!
(do i look older than him? hahaha well if i do, its coz i do act like the older sis instead of being the lil sis!! BLUEK!!)

So after the imigration place thingy, we went to JAYA JUSCO only to roam ard and

after half an hour we decided that there is absolutely nothing there and headed to

CAREFOUR to do a round of grocery shopping. After, we went to CITY Square i think to

do SHOPPING SHOPPING!! well, there was nth much but i bought 2 jungle ape t shirt

(UBER KEWL!!!!!) and a pair or lee coopers limited edition shoes! VERY VERY HAPPEH!!!

though i did not manage to find the high top sneakers i wanted, but oh well, i'll

find it in singapore then if not, i'll just have to wait for my shipment from

AMERICA!!!

I saw this awesome pair of sneakers by PASTRY and its really niiiiicccceeee!!! i

ordered 2 pairs so i'll just have to wait patiently i guess.

Okay there are still stuff i need to get before i start poly life, hahah and these

stuff are CRUCIAL!!! hahah okay luh not soo, but WHATEV!! hahah i still need a pair

os specs that i can actually use OUT of my house, a jacket from BATHING APE!!!, 2

more pairs of sneakers (non high tops! pls!!), a whole new wardrobe (but i guess i

can just keep dreaming bout that...haha), an ipod touch, a hair straightener, and

maybe just one more bag? okay maybe 2 more!

Okay i know i'm asking alot, buuuuuuttt......okay well yeah i am asking

alot...SOOOO?! hahhaha

WELL 'll go now!! haha bye!!!

WOOOO

2009-01-31T16:38:00.003+08:00

Hey!

Okay, i've not been blogging lately, But i guess you can know whats been happening in

my life by visiting nads blog.

Okay so everyone just got their JAE result! and yeah im quite happy with my result i

guess...hahah though i'm pretty unsure of how its all going to be like.

But i guess thats just part and parcel of life! I just cant wait to take on poly

life, i might get sick and tired of it hahaha but well i wouldnt know now would i.

Okay to tell you the truth, i'm kinda lazy to post anything, and i'm watching shallow

hal right now!!! whahahaha!! okay bye!!

PC!!

2009-01-26T23:49:00.002+08:00

HEH HEH HEH!!!!

I want to dedicate this post to MY VERY OWN, PC!!!! WOOOOOHOOOO!!!

Since he has been so very kind to post bout me, hahha i shall return the gesture! PC

is one of the funnest adults i have ever met, seriously. He is fun-loving and a lil

retarded as well...hahah but that's what makes him PC!!!

So cheers, to PC!!!!!

Ps: he asked me to ask my grandmum to buy for him ipod

touch...wahlao...hahahahhahaha!!!!!!

Happy CNY 2009!!

2009-01-26T12:14:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!

Gosh, CNY is a bugger, i woke up at 6 am in the friggin morning just to get ready

and make sure our family was the first to reach my grandmums house on my dads side.

My relative have this friendly competition, where the family that reaches the last

would have to be the one to "OPEN TABLE" for the whole family.

OPEN TABLE = Invite the WHOLE family to a restaurant and allow them to order

whatever they wish to. And i should add that the bill usually goes up to a jaw

dropping $700 to $1200. I know, CRAZY RIGHT....

And well, yeap, yet again, my family arrived at my grandmums house first!! OH the

joy. So, eventhough its CNY, my grandmum cooked her famous and mouth watering and

nose drippin ayam rendang. Nose Drippin is coz its FRIGGIN HOT!!!

This year was a lil different, we had this "cup-bowing-kneeling-i-dunnoe-whatche-ma-

call-it-ceremony-thingy" hahha, where we serve tea to anyone that is older that you.

IT was soooo chaotic that it was laughable. hahha, everyone went ard at the same

time and we see people doing all sorts of different bowing and stuff ESP my bro and

me. hahahha we did it like we were on a fast forward tape. I pity the lil ones

though they had to repeat the whole thingy over and over again!! THOUGH I DO NOT

PITY MY BRATTY FEJRGJOETJGR CUZ, NAFISAH...BLARGH!!! D:<

Okay after we did that, we lounged ard in the living room, catching up with each

other. And seriously, it was a helluva catching up.

You see, we dun really meet up with my relatives on my dads side. So whenever we

meet up theres alot to talk about. My aunt bought this chanel, versace and kate

spade bags on impulse and now she says she doesnt want it coz she thinks its too

young and chic for her so she'll be givin them to me!!! NYE HEH HEH HEH!!!

Okay as much as i want my ANG PAOS, i've yet to receive them. I'm still at my

grandmums house btw, and YES she has internet! And yeah i know my grandmums awesome.

hahaha

I'm gonna take a nap now and hopefully i dream about landing on piles and piles of

money!!! (i was gonna say awesome pairs of heels from all the branded names i ADORE,

but on second thought....OUCH) So nights!!!! and when i wake up it'll be this much

closer to ANG PAO RECEIVING TIME!! *holds thumb and umm, that other finger close

together*

hahaha!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!

CNY!!! 2009

2009-01-24T21:35:00.004+08:00

HEY!!!!!

Okay, after quite a happening week, the excitement is not going to die down!

Especially when CNY is here!!! One of my favourite holidays of the year! Some people

may be thinking why the hell am i celebrating CNY right? Well, many do not know my

heritage. I'm of mixed races which comprises of Javanese, Chinese and Japanese!Yeah

yeah hard to believe. My dad is chinese and my Mum is mixed Javanese and Japanese.

And so the governtment is confused as to my race so i'm labelled as OTHERS in my

IC....NICEEE.....

So, i consider myself lucky coz i get to celebrate, Chinese New Year, Hari Raya and

also Christmas(some of my relatives from my dad side are christians).

I'll be getting ang pow for CNY!!! yeah!!!

So anyhow, I'm actually at my aunts house all the way in kovan and we are having a

CNY dinner like is tradition and soon, we'll be tossing OUR AWESOME VERSION of the

salad thingy. And i swear this year i'll be the hightes one to toss it!!! SABO MY

UNCLE!! SABO!!!hahaha

Anyways, yesterday, nad and i slept over at jennas house. She had this Coloured

party AKA Anti-CNY party hahahha! well strictly no chinese allowed, thought there

were 2 chinese attended the party well if you count me in then 2 1/3 chinese. hahaha! It was a really awesome party, it started slow but it picked up pretty fast.

There, we met this Martin who kept dancing to songs by Beyonce, Rihanna and Britney

Spears! and he actually memorised the dance moves! hahah, and he was totally cute

and Gay may i add! soooooo adorable!! hahah

Had sisha there too and unlucky me got charcoal on my foot and got my foot burned.

It was a bad burn, second degree actually. However, I did not feel anything. And

everyone was convinced i was that HIGH to not feel the burn or the sting when they

ran cold water on my foot or when they put toothpaste on my foot. I wanna thank

Jenna for "MANJA-ING" nme so she puts it. hahha and i want to thank NIRAAD (my lil

purple friend) who helped provided the war scar in other words, he burnt me. He felt

kinda bad (he better have felt bad..hahhaa) but well no harm was done, seriously,

and i kept joking the whole time while i was fussed over. saying stuff like "at

least its not my face! :D" or "wow, the burnt patch actually looks fairer than my

skin, come on! burn me more!" hahaha

After cleaning and disinfecting my SMOKING LEG, heh heh heh, we continued sisha-ing

and i got all high and woozy! hahah but then sober up afterwards. hahha, We all

ended up crashing at ard 5:30 am. GOSH!!

now i', enjoying the company of my family and having fun cathing up with my distant

uncle. He's an artist and works in UK. Awesome right!

So to those celebrating out there,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!

PS: BRING ON THE ANG POW!!!!!!!

eventful week

2009-01-21T21:30:00.003+08:00

HEY!!!!

This week has been a very eventful week so far and i bet it will get even more

exciting just before this week ends.

On monday, me and the gang (nad, firza, akamal, siddiq, ilyas) went to tampines for

a lunch gathering at seoul garden and well ate like we've never eaten before! After

lunch which was 2 hours long we went roaming around tampines mall and then to

sunplaza park where we spent 4 to 5 hours straight playing at the playground,

hogging the swings, trying to kill ourselves on the flying fox thingy and cam

whoring! And we ended the day by sitting down at Small Macs to just calm ourselves

down with milkshake, coke, iced lemon tea and french fries!

Tuesday was a slow happening day. Jenna and i met at the cathay for sushi and CHEAP

sushi at that! i got loads of shit for about 10 bucks only. Anyhow, before reaching

dhoby gaut, i took the train from eunos and there was this dude who kept looking at

me curiously at first then kinda like just looking at me (I know...WTF right!?) so

anyhow both of us dropped at dhoby gaut. I took the escalator and he suddenly

appeared next to me (shock of my life....okay actually i was kinda expecting

it...bloody bugger) well anyways here is how the conversation went

Ugly unsuspecting dood : "uh, hie, can i get to know you?"

Bitchy me : "I'm lesbian" *straight face*

Ugly unsuspecting dood : *Shocked!* (need a moment to recover) "umm just as a friend?"

Bitchy me : "No." *didnt even looked at him and just walked away*

hahahha! classic situation man!!! anyways, after lunch we decided to go for the VS

guys chalet and have fun and chillax. Well had some food and drinks and well

everything became high and shit. hahhaa said loads of stoopid things and one of them

being....

"HEY! Small things come in Great packages!!" (i swear i was high!)

And kept trying to prove to people i wasnt "crazy" by saying "4+4=8" and "4x4=16"

hahaha funny!!

And today, well, went out as scandaleyezed (nad and jenna). Been soo long since we

went out just us three...hahah so anyways, went to bugis, sat at a cafe thingy and

just talked and talked...kinda nice actually.

And well tomorrow i have an NPCC reunion outing thingy, dunnoe how thats gonna go

and i'm gonna crash at jennas for CNY eve...hahah awesome!! cant wait!!

Okay i better get going! nights!

Shopping haven!

2009-01-15T23:23:00.002+08:00

Hey people!!!

Okay so since i'm definitely going to poly, i decided that i need more clothes!!!

ahhaha so a buch of us, namely nad, firza and jenna went to bugis to do some retail

therapy!! hahha and helluva retail therapy it was...hahah!

I like to think that we are all smart shoppers and i spent about $120 ++ ($131 i

think) on a bunch of stuff!!

Okay so here are the list of things i bought!

1) 4 pairs of earrings - $5

2) a Striped boat neck long top - $24

3) paint splattred dress- $25

4) bumble bee dress/long top - $20

5) black high waisted skirt with studs - $22

6) pink floral high waisted skirt - $15

7) rose baby doll dress - $10

8) a turqoise top - $10

haha i'm waiting for nad to upload the pictures, so i can show you all that i

bought!! hahah awesome awesome stuff! haha

RETAIL THERAPY ROCKS!!!!!

Not the end of the world :)

2009-01-14T14:49:00.003+08:00

Hey people!

Okay its, what? 2 days after the result day on Monday and honestly speaking, I WAS

disappointed with my results and I'm going to admit that i did cry my eyes out until

they became freaking puffy and shit...ahahha. But thank god, I'm over it. I guess

I'm not really the type to dwell alot on what has happened. Can't really change

anything even if i tried to kill myself right, so why waste time and make it all

worst by dwelling? I cant say that i didn't see it coming...

So, I've decided to forget about it and just focus on the future! 'O' levels is not

the deciding factor of whether you're gonna succeed in life or not...so why put in

much thought to it when whats done is done right? haha

Now that i'm over it, I can finally say this genuinely,

CONGRATULATIONS TO EVERYONE FOR DOING WELL AND GETTING WHATEVER THEY AIMED FOR!!!!!

To my awesome friends, Congratulations and I am soo proud of you guys!!! YOu guys

have made it through 'o' levels and have came out of it with really really good and

impressive grades! You guys really deserved it!

And to those of you who are disappointed with your grades, chill, its not the end of

the world...there's more opportunities in the future for you to prove yourself and

do better, so dun waste your time weeping or dwelling or regretting on what has

happened, you cannot change anything...So take it as sth that will make you work

harder and be a stronger person! THE FUTURE IS WHAT COUNTS!

So get that head of yours back on your shoulders and you will realize it's not THAT

bad as you thought it is...

Once again, Congratulations to everyone to have passed this obstacle! And CHEERS to

the bright future ahead!

PEACE OUT!!! :P

BLARGH!!!

2009-01-11T21:44:00.001+08:00

I AM SO UBER NERVOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(

Happy birthday ma!

2009-01-11T15:14:00.003+08:00

Hey everyone!!!

Okay, so, i've been attending some of the polys' open house...okay i went for only 2.

But those are the only 2 polys that i'm actually genuinely interested in going.

So to sum it all up, SP had some pretty cool and interesting courses, and i'm really

interested in "HUMAN RESOURCE MANAGEMENT AND PSYCHOLOGY". SP poly is has a really

really big campus and for that fact, i do not really like it that much.

However, after going for 2 Redcamps, Redcamp 4 AND 5, haha, I have made loads of

friends there and know some of the SLs there too. Seeing a familiar face in an

unfamiliar place is most comforting. NP also offers "INTERNATIONAL BUSINESS"

and "BUSINESS STUDIES" which i am also as equally interested in.

All in all, NP really appeals to me and i would really really love to be a part of

it. (Happy arr PC...hahaha) However, all is not confirmed yet. I guess i'll put in

more thought to it once i receive my predictably horrible results,haha.

Well, the soul purpose for this post is not to discuss bout this worrisome/tedious

topic but to actually wish my mum "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!" hahah, yes its her birthday

today and i'm at wits end on how to please her or at least give her a birthday

she'll enjoy.

So, after much thought, i decided to make her a Breakfast In Bed!!! (well i made

some for my dad as well, though not as grand as my mums bdae breakfast or esle he'll

start rambling and complaining , haha) And a helluva breakfast it was! I woke up at 6

am in the freaking morning along with my brother of course..heheh, and started

whippin up pancakes with whip cream and strawberries, orange juice, hot coffee/tea,

special scrambled eggs (we added milk and cheese to it), fried strips of turkey

bacon, waffles with maple syrup/chocolate fudge. Voila! SUPER MEGA BREAKFAST and all

in bed! hahah My brother and i even wrote happy bdae mum on the pancake & waffle

with the chocolate fudge.

And giving my mum a day off, we started cleaning the house, washing dishes, hanging

up clothes and my brother even washed the toilets (eeew i'm not doing that). I am

seriously exhausted! But all to make my mum happy! hahha. Thank god my dad gave her

this SPA gift. We'll be heading down to the SPA later on to get massages and all the

girly stuuf girls do. hahaha, after that, i'm bring my family to my ultimate

favourite restaurant when it comes to fushion food. AWESOME AWESOME FOOD!! And of

course i'll be blanja-ing everyone. I've arranged for the chef to make a special

dessert and to bring it out personally to her, which by when my brother and i would

have presented our gifts to her...shhh its all a secret!!

I cant wait for dinner, omg...i'm gonna cry tears of joy with every bite!!! hahaha,

well i've gtg and get ready to go to the SPA!!! YAY :D

Happy Birthday Mama!!

hahahha...randomeness

2009-01-08T19:48:00.003+08:00

Hey again! (wow, 2 posts in one day...impressive)

hahah, well, this is not really a post post exactly. I don't usually do this kinda

things but well, i thought it was quite an interesting "quiz" thingy. haha. So here

goes!

RULEZ!!!

1. Put your music player on shuffle

2. Press forward for every question

3. Use the song title to ans the questions

4. BLAH BLAH BLAH...

here goes!

How are you feeling today?

Inevitable by Anberlin

hahaha!! woah...nice!

Will you get far in life?

Lay in my bed by Mario

i guess that's a yes if i sleep with the right people??? hahah

How do your friends see you?

Our lives by The Calling

Umm...oookay...

Will you get married?

I wanna be by Chris Brown

HAHAHA!! I wanna be married?! hahaha

Whats you're best friends theme song?

We all fall down by All time low

yeah coz she's soo sadistic right...hahah

What was primary school like?

I drive myself crazy by Nsync

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!

What is the best thing about your friend?

Dota by basshunter

hahha, some of my friends like dota just like me i guess..hahah

What is in store for this weekend?

Box full of sharp objects by The used

I guess there'll be losta pain....haha

What song describes you?

Miss murder by AFI

heheheh! maybe kinda true...hahah

To describe your grandparents...

You by Chris Brown

??????????

How is your life going?

Who needs shelter by Jason Maraz

i'm homeless? haha umm...i'm independent?

What song will they play at your funeral?

Wish you the worst by Katy perry

HAHAHAHHA!! OMG! hahah

How does the world see you?

The devil inside by The word Alive

OMG, my cover has been blown! oh well, back to hell it is...hahaha!

You have a happy life?

Love Foolsophy by Jamiroquai

umm, yes?

What do your friends really think of you?

giving up on love by The ataris

hahaha, i gave up on love long ago...haha

Do people secretly lust after you?

Remembering sunday by All time low

oooookay

how can i make myself happy?

Pressure by Paramore

Oh. WOW. (haha if you get what i mean :P)

what should you do with your life?

My December by Linkin park

hahaha whatever that means...

Will you have children?

I don't care by fall out boy

i really dont...hahah

Okay i guess thats the end of the quiz, and tust me i did not rigged the

player...hahaha! some of the answers to the questions kinda makes sense...haha

Anyways, i'm not gonna tag people coz they prolly have done it or are too lazy...if

you wanna do it, then go ahead...if you dont wanna do it, then whatever! hahaha

BYEEEE!

Welcome 2009 with a BANG!! (seriously)

2009-01-08T17:34:00.004+08:00

As i was reading "The New Paper", i came across 3 disturbing articles.

All of them concerning life and death. I'll quickly go through all the aritcles that

really caught my attention. And maybe zoom in on one of them.

Article 1 : Two singaporeans shot and one still remains in coma

This took place in Denmark where one of them was celebrating his birthday. He has

closed his restraurant for a private fuction which was his very own birthday party.

This relative who had flew in from singapore was also there to celebrate

this "Joyous" occasion. That was when the gun man shot them at point blank. Private

investigators suspects that it has sth to do with "personal business" and are still

on the look out for the shooter.

Article 2 : A senseless attack on a grp of boys in Chinatown

Well, the title says it all doesnt it? 4 boys decided to go to Chinatown admist all

the CNY decorations to soak in the atmosphere and well maybe get some dinner. All

are still in their teens. Before leaving, some group of chinese guys started

shouting at them "What are you looking at?!" (isnt it typical...ugh, morons..) and

charged at them with metal rods and beer bottles. The youngest out of the four

managed to escaped but the rest was not as fortunate. One of them, Marcus was seen

chased by two dudes with a metal rod. Once the attack was over, marcus was concious

but only for a while before passing out. He suffered blood clots in his brain and

injuries on his left leg and chin. The following day, he passed away.

Article 3 : 2 year old toddler beaten to death and it could have been because of

ciggarates.

This young girl was described to be a very cheerful, bubbly girl and like any other

kid, mischievious as well. She was playing with a pack of cigarattes and had broken

all if not most of them into halves. A man (maybe her father, maybe not...oh you

know the generation these days...) who had found out about the girls' activities

started hitting and slapping her. And allegdly was seen steping on her as well

(WTF?!?!) The girls was then rushed to the hospital by her oblivious mother who

later found her unconcious with her nose bleeding after sweeping/mopping the kitchen

(yeah...right...i'm not saying shes was aware or anything but hey, she WAS in the

kitchen and its like what? 2 rooms away?maybe not, coz its a freaking 3 room flat.

Don't tell me that she didnt hear the kid screaming in pain and get curious as to

what was happening right. Oh no wait, dun tell me, the kid kept quite when a

freaking fist the size prolly twice her head pummelled into her face! or when the

hand slapped her across the face. GOSH...but hey well it's only my oppinion

right...nth more...). Well anyways, you guessed it, she passed away, and it was

believed that she passed away otw to the hospital.

If her death was really caused by the breaking of cigarattes into halves, i only

have two words to say to the fella.

FUCK YOU!!!!!!!

LIke WTF?!?! He beat a kid to DEATH just coz a freaking pack of cigarattes!? and

these cost what? 10 to 12 freaking dollars? which apparently to him cost more than a

life, an innoncent 2 year old's life! GOSH, what kind of animals is this world

housing?! And i'm just speculating, this dude prolly is a mat. If cigaratte was the

cause of this poor girls' death, then we should just ban smoking altogether. Stoopid

people and their stoopid smoking. Stoopid piece of shit.

I'm sorry to have just blown up like that but seriously, who in the hell whould not

get mad or pissed off when you open up the newspaper and read of such inhumane acts

and moreover, towards a lil girl who didnt know any better. GAWD...

WELL..........

After reading these 3 articles i was thinking, what a way to welcome 2009! but i

shant jinx it.

songs!

2009-01-08T02:32:00.004+08:00

Hey!!

Azri had a chalet the day before yesterday and he brought guitar hero!! LIKE OMG!!!

hahhaha it was uber fun esp when everyone start singing and shouting away. For

pictures, go on over to nad's blog and check out her photobucket!

Well, with that done, i'm gonna talk about sth else! I've been in the mood for

slow/mellow or even sad songs (i do not know why!) and i came across some really

nice songs (to me luh, you dun like, your pasal luh!). Some of you prolly would know

some of the songs. So for those of you who are also in the mood for these types of

songs and your playlist is kinda empty, then i hope this helps!

~My List Of Mellow/Sad/Slow Songs~

1. Hear you me by Jimmy Eat World

2. I'm lost without you by Blink 182

3. Tears in heaven by E.Clapton (CLASSIC!!)

4. In loving memory by Alter Bridge

5. Storm by Lifehouse (I love the acoustic version! AWESOME!)

6. Run by Snow Patrol

7. Waste by Smash Mouth

8. The saddest song by The Ataris (love love love)

9. For you to notice by Dashboard Confessional

10. Lullaby by Creed (sooo nice)

11. Wait by Something Corporate

12. Do you think about me by Something Corporate

Haha, i guess that's it...i'm in love with "SOMETHING CORPORATE" too bad they are

not together anymore, their songs are really nice...btw whats above is not my top 12

list of songs...and its also not arranged according to how much i like them, its

just randomly placed. So hope you guys do like the songs too, if you dun then

well...TOO BAD!!!!

hahah, bye!

deliberating macs

2009-01-05T22:17:00.003+08:00

I'm hungry! I'm tired! I'm hungry! I'm tired!

I want macs! I wanna get macs! I should get macs! Maybe i would get macs! I'm gonna

get macs!

YAY!!!!

REDCAMP 5!!!! sentosa trip!

2009-01-05T00:10:00.003+08:00

hey!!! i just came back from my sentosa outing with some redcampers...hahaha

it was surprisingly fun! hahah we had our own "outing" though...ahha spartans

outing!! hahha. Played soccer at first, kinda sucked at it, but well i decided wtf

and started chasing the soccer ball hahha, load good that did me, hahaha came back

with a freaking big blue black on my shin...haha. But i did get to score at least a

goal! WOOOHOOOO!!

Then it came to swimming...haha, nad and i stood there comtemplating whether we

should go in...considering both of us had missing parts of our garments...haha but

temptation got the best of us and we went in the water anyways! hahha ended up

drying off under the sun/in the wind.

went for dinner after and talked crap that is really really stupid and funny hahha!

cant really talk bout it...kinda private...all it had to do woth was SHIT, WET

DREAMS and LOTSA BLOOD!!! hahhahahah!!

played at time zone, the guys won cards games aka old maid (BOOOOOOO!!!) the card

game i hate the most hahaa coz i keep being the freaking old maid...hahaha And the

guys enjoy making fun of me...hahaha after that we went home....haha

i'm actually kinda lazy documenting all this...i think nad would blog about it in

with more details and pictures!!! hahahah like that huh...pictures...pshheessh!

hahaha

well, thats all i guess!! nights!! sooo tired!

Welcome 2009 with a bang!

2009-01-01T22:20:00.003+08:00

Happy New Year PEOPLE!!!

It's the start of a new year, one which is full of new experiences, such as new

friends, new school, new environment, new EVERYTHING!!!

2008 has definitely been an eventful year for those taking 'o' levels. Working our

butts off to achieve whatever we aimed for. Suffering all the late night studying.

Going crazy with info overload! hahha. but all the hardwork paid off!

Well, here it is, the most awaited moment, a new year!! one which is promising. one

filled with full of surprises and mysteries . And definitely one where all of us can

party too!! Of course we might be separated from our secondary school friends, but

it's an exciting adventure to set off on, where we will now be admitted into a

different institute be it, JC, poly, ITE, Art school...where we will spend another

3/2 years in! Another phase of our lives which is waiting to be discovered.

2009 is a year full of the unknown. Lets embrace it and going through every

obstacles or adventure head on without any regrets or hesitation! Lets be lose!

speak our minds! If you like someone, tell it like it is! If you cant stand someone,

tell it like it is!Dont live to regret the life you led....

With that, i wanna wish all my dear family and friends, a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Ps : 2009 IS GONNA BE AWESOME!!!

Escape from Alcatraz!!

2008-12-27T22:27:00.006+08:00

OKAY!! i know, that some of you might report me to the SPCA coz you'll think that my

pet hamster is unhappy in his home but in my defense, i give him all the love and

care that most hamster do not have the priveledge of having! My hamster, Muhammad

Freddie or AKA MAMAT, is just a very spoilt HAMSTER!!! very very spoilt!!

And, in these series of pics, i'll show you his latest activies!

ESCAPE FROM ALCATRAZ!!!!

And that soo shows that mamat is a bad bad boy!!!

hahah

RONNIE RADKE!!! 2

2008-12-26T19:49:00.004+08:00

RONNIE RADKE RELEASE DATE HAS BEEM POSTPONED TO SOMEWHERE IN FEBRUARY!!

thats suppose to be a good news coz that means he's on his way of getting out of

prison. But that just means, we ronnie radke's fans have to wait a lil longer.

But fear not! he's already got together a band called "From Behind These Walls"

hahah, yeah i know...PUN INTENDED MUCH!

I have heard their demo track and the instrumental rocks! cant wait till they

actually record the lyrics. So i guess thats all that i wanna share with all of you.

RONNIE RADKE STILL ROCKS!.....well his voice does!

Priceless memories : Preparation for 'O' Levels

2008-12-23T21:07:00.007+08:00

Hey,

I was pretty bored today and was looking through all the pictures in my phone and i

stumbled upon some pictures that brought back bittersweet memories. Honestly

speaking, i actually miss those days.

Pictures can speak a thousands words, so i'll let the pictures do the talking.

Enjoy.....

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So that's it, i hope your preparation for 'o' levels was as fun as ours was,

surrounded by good friends to help you through any crisis, panick attack or nervous

breakdown.

Not that we had any of those, sheesh! hahah

blargh

2008-12-22T14:43:00.002+08:00

Hey!!

okay, to tell you the truth, i'm really really bored right now so i decided to post in some crap!

So, i've been trying to find a job so i wont be bored out of my freaking mind! And

it so happens that i didnt have to look far for this so call job that would save me

from boredom. My dad offered me a job! hahaha, hurrah the power of having a daddy!

Well, all i have to do is just complete some paper works, look into some

notes/charts/graphs which is second nature to me in this point of my life. And the

best part, i dont have to leave the comforts of my house!

HOW AWESOME IS THAT?! Okay, not THAT awesome, but well at least i'm getting paid!

YAY!!

new found surf buddies!

2008-12-17T22:51:00.003+08:00

This post is dedicated to Jason, Scott and Tyler. My new found buddies!

I HATE YOU GUYS!!!!!! While your still enjoying life and surfing the next big tide,

i'm stuck here in singapore with puny pathetic waves!!!

Gosh, i hope you guys drown while surfing! hahah oh god, okay i take that back, just

incase that'll really happen on account you guys are not that good a swimmer. HAH!!!

Well, i'm sure you guys are reading this, asswipe...hahaha

Okay! fine, beneath this tough exterior, i'm actually missing you guys something

fierce! So there you have it, asswipes, i bet you all are grinning away huh, hahah.

To Jason, I'll kick your ass any time at surfing!

To Scott, I'm already missing your stupid/weird sense of humour. hahhaha

To Tyler, Well, i'm actually happy to be away from you, pervert...HAH!!!

And all in all, i KNOW you miss me!! well, talk to you guys some other time! btw,

plz upload the photos and send them by email to me ASAP before i'll go all the way

there and kick your pretty asses!!!

BYE guys!

inthe airport!!!

2008-12-08T23:12:00.002+08:00

Hey people!!!

i'm actually at the airport right now at one of their internet booths. So i decided to just visit my dearly loved blog.

It's 11:14 now and i'm suppose to be at the gate in another 30 mis time. I know right, bugger. So anyways, bout me making fun of the people not going overseas, i'm sorry...hahaha

I'll miss every one of my friends dearly!! and i think i'll be back in a weeks time or if theres any change in plans, a moth or so then....

Can't wait to go to the nude beach!!!!!!!! wahahahha

i think i better end it here coz there's a freaking time limit!

haha byeeeee!!!

HOLIDAY AND SUCKERS!!

2008-12-07T17:10:00.004+08:00

hey people!!!

for those who of you whom i did not manage to contact or text (coz the stoopid text

msgs are damn expensive....) i just thought that i should infrom you awesome people

that i'm leaving for aussie land in another short 24 hours so i'll probably wont be

able to communicate with you guys for another week or so, unless there's an internet

cafe near my apartment in aussie land!

So, to all you sucky people who are not going anywhere for your holidays, then too

BAD FOR YOU!!!! SUCKA!!! hahha okay luh okay...i feel sad for you guys..

oh! and i definately will be having fun in aussie land but i am not so sure that you

will be enjoying yourself in SINGAPORE. so i wish you happy holidays in singapore(

the kinda boring country)!!!

and i'll be back before you know it!!

chao!!

you know you love me.

XOXO *MUACHS*

2008-12-07T16:41:00.002+08:00

Hello people!!

i'm now lying on my bed with my cuz, firah, and talking bout how many admirers she has....and well she told me she has more than 100!! wahahahhaha!!

see, good genes does run in the family wahahhahaha!!

okay toodles!

RONNIE RADKE!!!

2008-12-04T23:35:00.003+08:00

this post goes out to my new found love!! (which i do not know how long it'll last...ahhaha)

well, i LOVE RONALD J. RADKE!! AKA RONNIE RADKE!!!! WOOOHOOOO!!!

you guys prolly wouldnt know him...well thats good! coz more for me!! haha yeah

right...anyways! he's the ex-singer of the band called Escape The Fate.

He's now in jail, btw...but he's getting out in february i think if nothing goes

wrong! and i cant wait for his new band and his new songs!! WOOOHOOOO!!!!!!

RONNIE RADKE ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahah

my dream!

2008-12-03T19:15:00.003+08:00

Hey!!! okay, since i submitted this emo post previously, haha, i'll submit sth

different this time!

I'm gonna tell you this weird dream i had!

okay, so lemme tell you in a story like kinda way...

*bubbles into trance*

So here i was in my room, alone, on a rainy night. My parents had left singapore for

their holiday and i was stuck in my big,old house/mansion alone. Being a paranoid

teenager that i was, i checked and re-checked all the locks, windows and doors that

could be found in my house. Satisfied that everything was secured and that i was

safe from whatever form of evil out there, I decided that I deserved a nice, hot

bubble bath.

As i entered my bathroom, i heard a knock coming from my window (and my room is on

the 3rd story btw...freaky!!) Obivously, like any other normal teenager whose

residing alone in a big, old house/mansion would be freaked. I slowly walked towards

my window and peeked out into the darkness, it was blurry due to the rain that kept

pouring down like waterfall on my window. However, the blurriness didnt hinder me

and out in the garden below, i saw a dark figure standing and staring up. I didnt

know for certain whether he was looking at me at all. For all i know, he could have

had his back to me.

I must be seeing things

I closed my eyes and opened them again, sure enough, the dark figure was no longer

there. I then cautiously closed my curtains making sure there was no gaps between

the curtains, i even took a few clothes pin to pin together the curtains. So that no

way in hell could i see out and vice versa. By the time i finished pinning the

curtains together, i figured i was now too lazy for the bubble bath i planned to

reward myself with and got ready for bed instead. In my monkey PJs (dun ask..), i

switched off the lights and ran as quickly as i could across the room and buried

myself under my blanket.

Seconds turned into minutes and i still couldnt sleep. I toss and turned to find the

most comfortable position so i could finally fall asleep. Eventually, i got into a

comfy position and was on my way to dreamland. However, just as soon as i closed my

eyes, i heard laboured breaths near my left ear. I jumped out of bed and ran across

the room and turned on the switch. When the room was washed with light, i took deep

breaths and said to myself

"Meera, there is no one in your room. Stop letting your imaginations get the best of

you. There's absolutely no on in your room. Now, your gonna switch off the light and

go to bed." I tired to reassure myself.

So i did it, i switched off the lights. Before i could even take a step towards my

bed, a deep, smooth voice came from behind me and it said

"Are you sure?"

I suddenly blanked out.

*bubbles into reality*

okay that was it before i woke up. Scary man...of course the dream was longer, but i

cut it short so that i wont really bore you people! hahha

cool dream huh!?!? hahahha

My epiphany

2008-11-30T11:59:00.003+08:00

hey!! I'm finally blogging again! hahha, my apologies for being too lazy to think of

something to post up in this nearly dying blog.

I had an epiphany while i was lying down on my bed and thinking about life and what

it's all about, about my future, about what am i going to do for the rest of my life

and stuff like that.

Well, then, i suddenly started thinking of why I've never had a boyfriend before or

let alone allow someone (namely a guy..) to get too close to me. And then i thought

about my phobia of commitment (hahah!).

Of how I'm afraid to be tied down by someone, to have great expectations from and of

someone, to see him walk away after all the sacrifices i had done or see all the

happy moments all go to waste and to not be able to truly be myself when I'm with

that someone (you know the saying of people change or aren't truly themselves when

in a relationship right?)

However after really giving it alot of thought, i finally realize that I'm not

afraid of commitment(surprisingly). Having someone to love and someone loving you

is a great feeling and if i do find that special someone, i wouldn't mind being tied

down, i wouldn't have to pretend to be someone else in the relationship because he

would love me for who i am.

But instead, i found what was the true fear beneath the facade of being "commitment

phobic".

Disappointment.

That is what I'm truly afraid of. I'm afraid that after committing to a guy and

giving him all that i have (in terms of feelings luh, not money...I'm not THAT

stupid!) that it will not work out and he'll in the end would leave me. And I'll in

the end would end up with a broken heart and i for one do not know whether I'd be

able to piece it back together. Turning into an unfeeling zombie (biggest fear!)

I've had a preview of being disappointed and honestly, i don't care for the feeling.

I believe that I'm not like the majority of teenagers or even adult out there who

are just living day by day and having a relationship just because it's the IN thing.

Of having a boyfriend/girlfriend (but what he/she really is, is just another

accessory or for some, another trophy to be displayed in a cupboard).

I'm looking for something that will last and not just a one night stand kinda thing.

So this is my story.

What's yours?